What do you mean by ‘decided to not interact with you face to face’?
What do you think is looking back at you when you look at and observe the Universe, It Self?
If ‘you’ think or believe that God is still a “him”, then this is WHY ‘you’ cannot and do not see God for what It really is.
I agree.
But what has what you adult human beings think and do, or do not think and do not do, got to do with God, It Self? Anything ethical, moral, loving, or caring standpoint has to do with what you human beings think and do.
And how many ways of birth and comfort, joy, and peace as well?
‘you’ suffer more in thought than ‘you’ do in Reality.
Children suffer far more from adults misbehavior than they do from anything else, and the only ‘suffering’ a fully ‘grown up’ and mature adult human being with might be some physical pain.
Now, ‘you’ wrote ‘death’ as though that in and of itself is something to fear and so ‘suffer’ with knowing about. Also, just because something is not taken as ‘positive’ never necessarily means that it has to be accepted as ‘a suffering’.
Once more, absolutely EVERY thing is relative to ‘the observer’.
If this is how ‘you’ have chosen to ‘look at’ and ‘see’ things, and so why ‘you’ never love nor care ‘for others’, then okay.