The "BIG SLEEP"

I bet this has already been talked about, made into a book, a movie, or was talked about in philosophy, if so tell me please.
We’ve already been told we have no clear conscious or any leverage we actually know about because we’re living. We can experience death, but only die and never achieve resurrection, per say, we only go in and don’t come back. Can we, once in deaths’ grip, slip out or stay trapped in an invisible force we’re controlled in? Are only limited or limitless? We can say it’s visual because it is something we’re brought to to be. We hope to be limitless if it is complete pitch-black and if not than what else can be the form of our absolute soul? We can stay minded (as grounded), and still be a form that of which can’t be controlled or tamed if in darkness. The mind stays knowing, because it is already deceased, and only exists as one form, this form is the exact form I wish to describe. If not pitch-black death still comes quickly to life a soul to a form of absolutely no colors we know now. If yes, than we change form regardless, we appear to be existent but remain non-existent in our living form. Can it be that we disappear into a realm which is controlled by us if one person is to know his/her own death and next life as existent? It’s safe to say we won’t know death for another person and we can make sense only of our own death.
We have freedom of choice and freedom of to not chose. Can we accept a realm that discards life and is a realm of spiritless and windowless that of which can’t be experienced yet and only be taken as consideration?
If we do absolutely die and be comfortable in another form nothing like life. In one we’re seen as controllers of only a place known by us and experience death in a manner that we haven’t got use to yet. We stay dead until we find we are dead and know we’re dead and began a life that of which is dead and can’t control that matter. We see ourselves as dead when dead and only stay continuing an understandable time continuum that only each person perceives and as life we get use to and adapt.