I seem to be stuck on the idea of Everything and Nothing (E&N). The more I ponder philosophical questions the more I realize that E&N is at the root of many of my thought struggles.
How do we even have the concept of E&N? The concept of zero and something? One of my professors, an Indian chap, was bragging one day about how the Indians invented the concept of zero. I don’t know that they “invented it†but I was watching a math history program that confirmed that the earliest description of the number zero or the empty set was in India. It’s not important to me who first described the concept of nothing/zero, but perhaps it can help me in my pursuit of higher understanding of zero/nothing. I feel like I still don’t truly understand zero/nothing.
I guess it just seems crazy (and quite amazing) that a human could even come up with the thought that “There is something… What if there was nothing?†It’s as if it seems possible that there could be nothing. Obviously there isn’t nothing, the universe, you and I exist. As I always seem to be saying, “It doesn’t matter whether you believe God created a universe or you are an atheist…†there is something. If God has always been, I don’t really care. Maybe the universe has always been. But that is not my struggle. The fact is that something IS. Something exists. Something cannot come from nothing. It’s a crazy paradox or impossibility to think that at some point there was nothing. That’s why I think the big bang is so stupid. It doesn’t answer anything! You can reduce everything back to a point, but you still have some antecedent cause. And theists just drop God at the beginning of everything, but that doesn’t help. The whole thing seems absurd to me. It seems way beyond me that THERE IS SOMETHING.
It is similar to the feelings in those moments when you realize you are conscious. “Wow, I exist… What the f**k!?â€
When I was young, I was not “into†philosophy until I began reading Camus. That opened the flood gates. I believe existential questions will always remain close to my heart.
So I suppose I am making this post to ask for direction or for references to philosophers that wrote about this subject.