So close, so far…
So good, so bad…
So hard, so easy…
So long, so fast…
So weak, so powerful…
Hardly anybody on earth believe.
Almost none of them know how to do this…
When she screamed a strange being was attracted to the high frequency. It left soon; did no harm. She wasn’t scared of it; I guess she was pretty happy. But if I screamed into the material world… No matter what I said, they wouldn’t grasp it.
On the edge of human.
At the tip of transfiguration.
Confused, never-stopping.
Powers open,
They are not taken.
Might grows
Only within.
This is going to be a big change for me.
It already was…
Only the one who had first-hand experience would believe.
He see, and he knew.
I hope that he can recover…
I think that he will.
From then on, he can evolve farther.
Anything but human.
I think that I’ll get “revenge” someday,
Like laughs at an old photo-album.
I’ll shock some people.
They will not understand what they saw.
They will ignore.
They will doubt – so deeply, so stupidly,
That learning will become impossible.
Materialists
And ignorant monotheists
Plaster the planet
Like a sufficating ooze.
Words are nothing now.
I feel like setting all words aside,
Like I’m setting down a hammer,
Surrounded by screws.
I hope that
She can learn more,
And become more easy to deal with
As she manifests.
I didn’t abort this existence
No matter how un-controllable or dangerous it could have been.
I’m just not like that.
I can’t kill them like they were machines.
Burning materials
I dare not say.
The smoke and the shifting from matter to energy
Remind me
That change, complete change,
Is possible.
I want to break this world.
I want to break it.
I’m so tiered of it’s solid and static cycles.
I’m so tiered of its stale and sterile heaps.
Just, I just can’t say it.
I can’t seem to say.
I love her and her realm.
I love this power.
I love potential.
I love the other side.
I love to win.
I love to step beyond.
But at the same time,
The danger wispers…
Wispers in screams…
I feel it when I remember,
I feel it when I forget.
I resist it,
But it’s pulling at me.
No!
The gods shall not have me!
I’ll laugh.
I’m going to laugh atleast once,
When I make someone know.
I’ve got a few…
J should be back… I hope… Someday…
I don’t think that they are powerful enough anymore.
Miri or AKNA may have been…
But the rest of them are not very mighty.
He’s hungery for two things:
My destiny,
Power.
Craving and desire
Alone
Are frustration.
Coherent and precognitive lust for transcendance
Make… make such things happen in 3 days…
Soldiers march for their flags.
Men march for their families.
Monks march for their afterlife.
Fools march for chaos.
They all keep moving.
“Fate” can be defied.
Time can be altered.
Once it becomes beyond words
I’ll have little chance of showing it to
My passed humanity.
I’ll take comfort
Instead
In the wings,
The fur,
The fangs,
The blue mist,
The clear, sweet liquids,
The un-explainable depth of the second mind,
The travel – withouth moving,
The glory… The sheer, unseen glory,
The deep… the total deep…
The transcendance.
I’ll take comfort in the lonely magick of forever.
I’ll let go of humanity someday.
I’ll have bigger things to do.
I will behold
What all doubts within
Denied my witnessing.
So incredible.
The music,
And then the silance.
The reaching out
And being touched
From the other side.
Such a small tunnle of time we drop through.
So much outside of the age.
I have no curses left.
I…