When i wonder what the human mind mainly cosists of, culturally, a few things come to mind.
So many people i’ve met have a life which consists primarily of labor, religion and consumption.
Other than these three states of conditioning, i find basically nothing else in the people’s minds.
Education is basically work training and labor training.
Religion is basically behavioral and ontological conditioning/training. morals and how to pretend to ‘think’.
And “art” tends to be consumer products, like movies and books all are made to be sold,
so the artistic and alternative fascets of human experience basically just exist within
a bunch of products that people buy.
All of my friends and family are basically strangers to me.
They think that they know something about me, but they don’t.
Most of my relationships aren’t even relationships, they just appear to be relationships.
If we do not actually know the truth about a person, how can we think that we know them, and are their friend? How can we value them if we do not know what value truly is?
Conditioning, and sharing in a mutual belief towards unsubstantial lies and nonsense, that seems to be the basis of how people live and what they think.
The other evening i spent a few hours listening to drunks talking to me about how God and Jesus are.
Now despite not teaching me anything real or substantial about the true origins of the universe,
these people still were basically failures at even the basics of functionality and comprehention.
Although it appears that i live in a society, i’m actually alone.
I have almost never in my 24 years ever successfully communicated with a human being to the point of transmitting any actual true understanding passed the basic point of refreshing memories of the most common and banal experiences of appearances.
Although we associate death and deadness, with a state whence there is no thought and no activity anymore…
The amount of things that i truly ‘can do’, and the amount of things i actually comprehend or precieve, compared to what -could- be done and what -could- be thought or know, is so minisule and insectile that I feel I’m basically as good as ‘dead’ already. This isn’t really even a life. All of these tiny events on this useless planet fade away ni instantly and nobody ever looked at them or understood them in the first place.
Every day i consider the future, i remember that i will die.