the persistence of loss

Days go by faster when I’m not alone,
but that had not been,
[list]since what we had,[/list:u]
[list][list]seemed set in stone.[/list:u][/list:u]

I have been sitting here in the cold,
hoping to feel light,
[list]but everyday I see it,[/list:u]
[list][list]I feel the words that I had been told.[/list:u][/list:u]

The sun reminds me each day of what I had,
and within the memory,
[list]that brings me pain,[/list:u]
[list][list]there remains only the persistence of loss.[/list:u][/list:u]

Sagesound, I like all three of these very much probably because I can relate so well to them personally. This one, in particular, speaks to this overwhelming sense I have of existing in some dark void. It’s not to say that I’m never happy, or enjoy life, but I feel this sense of something eternally missing. I don’t know if it’s something I had at one time or not, it’s not a specific person or event- it’s just a feeling of permanent emptiness that nothing can adequately remove.

In “Leaving Hope” I get a feeling of regret, love, and lost opportunity. These poems have a very visceral effect on me. I enjoyed them.

I’m glad you enjoyed them, and could connect with them on a personal level. It feels good to know when something you write can click with someone’s emotions. I haven’t written much poetry in a while, so it’s like putting on the old glove again making sure it still fits.

The only time I do write poetry is in the moment of inspiration…

“The only time I do write poetry is in the moment of inspiration…”

I’m the same way, it’s the only time I write or paint. The outcome is better that way. Being in school killed me, in a lot of ways it felt like artistic prostitution.

time to show us what you are made of vortical.

What do you mean by that???

You know, I see new people join the forum all the time and all of them get welcomed, greeted, acknowledged… I never got that and I feel left out. It’s like I just floated in and nobody noticed. Thanks for taking me for granted. Now is this here some sort of challenge?

I don’t know…maybe I’m going to lock you in the basement when you get here!

…I’m just kidding of course…

yes, it’s a challenge. just write some poems and post it here. this is about the best welcome that you can possibly ever get around town

I already posted one “poem” or rather just something I had written and then just recently some thoughts about my lover. I’m not a poet. If you want me to take some pictures of my paintings, scan them in and post those- I’d be happy to. You didn’t have anything to say about what I wrote anyway- there are a lot of poems in here, most of them just go under my radar because there are just too many and almost all of them don’t do anything for me.

that is one gross “poem” v, though i always wished some chick would actually “love” me like that. i’m coming over on the next flight from heathraw to chicago international, i’m gona try my luck with a woman like that…

Gross? What do you mean by gross?

Why is “love” in quotes? I don’t think many people love each other like that- it’s over the top, I know. Words are sweet and easier than action.

What will women think of you living secretly in an unfurnished basement?

you sure ask weird questions v, but let me try to anwser you one by one, i’m naturally kind hearted…

1 grosssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

2 (sorry, really can’t do this one)

3 that i might be a ratman?

I don’t know if my feelings are hurt that you think “love” is gross, but then again you are a man. You’re cool in my book anyway!

Yes I probably do ask a lot of weird questions, make some weird statements too I’m sure. I’m glad everyone here has been so accepting… I’m kind of surprised actually.

I’m sending out a warm love vibe to everyone!! …especially you Pureasonist “I’m going to miss you most of all.”

i’m writting about YOU in a poem in a minute