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alright, so… my thesis is ‘God is Everything’. He is both the alpha and the omega, the yin and the yang; on all levels and in all ways. Men used to be aware of this, but they weren’t progressed far enough in their language to convey it, yet, so they used simple words like ‘God’ and ‘Devil’ and ‘angels’ and ‘demons’, and really, those words are still very useful to todays imagination, though not so much to the literal-minded, who want their truths served to them cold; and therein lies another truth, that while God wants to rise above his own insanity, that part of him that is most deeply insane no longer cares and fights against. Imagine a single-celled organism. What does it do? Do we not all stem from these? There is a balance and from each split there comes a positive and a negative; therefore what started out as one becomes two becomes four becomes eight, so on and so forth, rapidly multiplying.

This is the fundamental foundation of life itself. But, the invisible energy that is put out from each division becomes the idea of God or the Devil and it wraps itself oddly around the particle because the particle is constantly moving. Our Aura, as some would call it.

Now, imagine a division that can split, yet still retain the one after the split; that is God. And, that is every living thing on the planet that we can readily identify; every living organism puts out life at the same time as retaining itself. What started out as a singular division became a complex multiple division that retained itself after; so it shows thought on behalf of the little particles, to be coming up with something better as they create more complex organisms.

And what of God at this point, if we were so made in his image as the religious do define and then deny out of fragile minds that forget the truth; same as God does from time to time, yet no truth really escapes us; only our memory of having known it. It’s still there, just needs to be remembered. And there are multiple parts of God that panic when this happens; same as with each person in turn, and life and nature.

Everything is inter-connected and with each division that stemmed from religion trying to find new things at first, and then running from the truth… Science, math, psychology, astrology, everything; we found that same glaring answer at the end of the tunnel; that one thing we couldn’t readily define that seemed to be staring back at us. And, certainly things behave differently when they’re aware of being watched than when they’re not being watched and each person has to learn to trust themselves after being taught discipline.

There’s always that small part of us, though, for those who manage, that keeps trying to get us into trouble, but we learn to control it and that is not by mistake, either; it is the nature of everything and God is no different, so what makes the overall species of mankind any different? It doesn’t.

When people finally cast off the divisions of society that are self-contrived to find that deeper truth; which more and more are doing this day and age, due to every second we’ve spent in Hell desperately looking for a way out; there will be a reckoning and we will gain control of our species, because the true agents of negativity are fewer and far less convincing after their lies have been exposed.

Since this knowledge has made its way back into the world, one can only assume that its time for us to wake up and take responsibility and for things to change; which summarily makes this the second coming, and people want to get all hyper-sensitive and afraid over nothing and then cause so much damage in their stupidity as they run from something that never wanted to hurt them in the first place, but did so because it wanted them to learn how to love everything, because it was beautiful.

I think it started out as a simple game to pass the time and to stave off insanity and so this God created all of this and put himself into it before fully realizing what was going to happen; but left enough of himself outside of existence to be able to keep a rein on everything. I mean, it happened while the God was being born and what gave birth to it? Who knows? Maybe it just happens when black holes finally suck everything up and goes back out. The only way we understand the technicalities of our own birth is because we’ve been able to witness others performing that same act. And maybe there isn’t that direct consciousness there first, just some primal instinct to set the whole thing in motion; and for something exploding out of a black hole with all of everything condensed within it, then is that any surprise?

This world is already dead; the story already ended and now we’re just going through the motions as it unfolds and shows us the full truth of itself in time. And that truth will always lead back to that ultimate truth again, only in a newer way. Negativity; darkness; spreads as much as light does and which one wins out? Ultimately, the ultimate that keeps control of everything, for it is a fixed point. As much as light destroys dark and dark destroys light, they really can’t destroy that balance. It would be a lot better if they could respect each other, though, which is what the light wants. It doesn’t want to fully get rid of the dark because it understands; but dark doesn’t. It’s starting to, but it’s not really getting it because it’s so caught in its insanity. We have to sacrifice a little if we want things to keep going, you see. We have to allow certain things to happen if we want to keep our game going, because otherwise; eternity is just a long and lonely ride. None of us are truly anything without someone to share it with. And so even negativity is a lie, because even in Hate, they love. But love loves everything.

History is filled with people who have, in some way or another, sought to remove their perceived faults from the flesh and for a long while, light did the same before it realized that it, too, was caught in that same insanity and it moved on, but negativity did not. It kept on becoming bent on removing the perceived faults, not realizing it was only a shallow mockery, for it held onto the notions of a child while the light had moved on, and that fits, too, because each person is a child inside no matter how old they get or how hard they try to hide it. There will always be things left in the dark, but it behooves the creatures where the light does exist to quarantine the dark that rests inside of it, for no dark will come in until that light does fade and if we remain strong of mind, then that light will never fade. Dark does the same, for it needs slaves. And these natures take turns being in charge for long periods of time. Negativity will lead the way for a while and then positivity will, because the parent wants the children to learn how to play well together. Cain and Abel, though; which is why nobody is allowed to be exceptional, and yet even that becomes a hindrance to what we wish to be, because we should aspire not to have jealousy at all; but for each to be happy with his own qualities.

And yet that dark child with blinders on never listens and runs from reason and experience and keeps itself in dark places out of not wanting to understand and only to do what it wants to do without responsibility or understanding at all, because it is a lonely child and thinks mostly of itself. And thus Cain went and put the divisions into life for not understanding what God expected of him, and yet he did exactly as he should at the same time, for even without understanding why they do something, they serve the purpose; the overall balance. I don’t really believe in good and evil anymore, only genius and insanity; negativity and positivity, and balance; that yin and yang. I kept searching for a reason for my life and I guess I’m that great equalizer that comes to bring that balance back and remind people of it. My purpose: to fight for the underdog. This round its positivity and good things. In time, people will forget again as God does and we’ll repeat this again and become stronger in the process and eventually we’ll get so strong that one side will be beaten out entirely and the process will collapse on itself and then start over. According to the bible, we’ve got a thousand years of peace in store for us and that’s a promise I intend to hold the big guy to.

and this fight; this balance; is going on every single day on every single scale of magnitude, from our smallest particles to our largest; it is in each organism and even space becomes an organism with its separations of light and dark within it, the same as whats within us.

This constant bickering and arguing and fighting that becomes our species so much is what drives us forward. But imagine our species, entirely, is an organism as well and we were a child species once and we are hitting our older years, now; ready to grow up and become mature and we can either be the frantic child that doesnt want to and keeps persisting in its idiocies and claims its having fun all the while it runs from the truth of what it does, or we can go out with some dignity and with some grace and add our signature touches to say, ‘hey, we added to this giant piece of art and it’s even more beautiful for all the dark that we had to endure to get here.’

The same thing echoing, echoing all around us in everything; absolutely everything. And those who think too deeply about it are going to lose themselves staring into that abyss, which inevitably does happen to some, which creates the worst of the worst that drives the multitude until someone stands up to stop them; usually the person who realizes it’s better to stay on the fringes and absorb all of the information by osmosis and to move on quickly to other things.

Metaphysical thinking is quite dangerous to the ill-prepared and yet there is absolutely nothing to fear from it because you can always just travel in a straight line to get out the other side; it has no walls. But really, when you get right down to it, there is no bad or good because it just is and so people are being things they dont understand and hating themselves for it and then making others hate them and it all boils down to faulty perception of things. We shouldn’t be afraid of pain or anything, but instead love everything and everybody. I just expect people to know who they are and be at peace with it. There needs to be understanding. It is our choice and we need to make it and then we have to give incentive for others to make that same choice and keep with it, because that’s what negativity is good at: persistence. Well, I’m a persistent ass motherfucker, too, when I’ve a mind to be, which is why I keep getting banned from places in NS and other games.

Is it any wonder insanity runs rampant? Luckily, so does genius. It’s kind of like Scott Pilgrim in a way. I met my negative me and I dared to make a friend out of him and found out he’s not such a bad guy. He’s actually quite fucking hilarious. God cracks me up a lot, too. He’s got a lot of funny ass metaconscious jokes. -whispers- when you think about, we’re really just talking to our self right now. :smiley:

Edit: omg, that’s why there’s that rule where people think talking to yourself is insanity! to keep people from connecting to God. You know, that’s actually pretty brilliant, I have to give the little bastards credit for that.

I used to be afraid of insanity, but then I just embraced it. Having a shitload more fun than I ever used to and I’m actually happy almost all the time. I’m a good man and that’s all that matters and all the hateful voices can just go away.

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matter doesn’t come from nothing and the entirety of space did not spring up all on its own overnight one day out of nothing. It is much the same how we are born and live and die and there are parent universes and child universes and as they grow in their respective time lines, they get older and die; some of them die prematurely by random occurences, which really aren’t all that random, because they all have a reason why they happened.

And so, matter is always there and always has been there and always will be there. There is no beginning or end, but continually goes without end or beginning save to certain parts of the overall system, such as when a universe gets sucked into a blackhole and such as when a blackhole explodes back outward again with all that matter it sucked in, causing even more universes to be born out of all those that died.

nature of perception. What is known as confidence itself, without egotism, is often confused for arrogance and egotism. What is known as asking rhetorical questions is often seen as condescending by people who lack the correct answers for those questions. And, often, when people answer questions in a certain manner, such as an adult to a child, the child often sees it as condescending and hates the adult for it because they think they know best, when they don’t. And surely, every person remains a child on the inside as they grow, no matter how old they get or how much they try to hide it. Those that realize this, tend to take care of that child and teach it love and good things at the same time as disciplining it so it stays out of trouble; because all of us want to have fun, but there becomes a proper time and place for it and if we have fun all the time, everything goes to ruin. Childish minds are still intelligent and when they amass, they are very persuasive to the world, as we see across the world in todays world. When adults act like children, I find it’s better to treat them as such until they want to act like adults again.

The problem with childish behaviors and understandings and mindsets is that eventually sanity and reason must win out, because there’s only so much patience and love will put up with from spoiled children.

no, I completely understand. I used to be that same exact way. But, after a while, I got tired of not understanding things and I gave that seeming dead end a try. Some times you have to take things on faith to find deeper knowledge, mate. If you’re looking for things to be directly proven to you in life, then it’s going to be a very cold and lonely life for you and you’re never going to know if people love you or hate you or anything, really.

But, let’s start with what you do believe in. It’s easy enough to say you don’t believe in something, but give more reasoning. There are things in this life you can’t see when you look directly at them. If you’ve ever been up during a really dark night and walking around in the dark, you’d know this; because if you look directly at things in that darkness, you can’t see them, but you can look off to the side and see shapes with your peripherals.

Here’s something that can be proven to you: in each area of expertise; astrology, science, religion, philosophy, psychology, music, drama, politics and government, math, history, quantum mechanics, everything; you eventually run across an anomaly that you can’t fully explain. Now, maybe someday we’ll have a clinical term for it all, other than God, but at the moment, each area of expertise has called it something else and they refuse to talk much about it except in closed circles.

There in itself is proof of something that can’t be proven. It is in everything and even rests behind our conscious mind. It is our subconscious, linking every living thing to each other. I’ve only take the next step in progressive thought to make the assumption that when a cell splits and makes a copy of it, it remains linked to its counterpart and each division of that cells remains linked to every other division. All are the same and all are different, for they have that part of them that remains coded with its own elements and they have that part of them that remains connected to everything else. This is our subconscious thought, which certain things, like hallucinogenics such as mushrooms and acid, help you tap into.

Now, when we give birth to our children, we retain our selves afterward; so it stand to reason that if this thing we know as ‘God’ is everything, then he gave birth to this whole universe; is in fact this entire universe just underneath the surface of it; and not, at the same time; he is also greater. Just the same as we are a part of our children, just underneath their surface and they’ll always carry traits of us with them as they get older at the same time as being themselves.

The fact that everything is brought together and easily explained by attributing it to a singular anomaly; such an anomaly known as ‘God’ by certain people; only further reinforces the fact that that anomaly rests below the surface and appears to have had a conscious and thought-out plan for the entire Universe, for it has unfolded with great majesty before our eyes, and it is very beautiful.

I find closed-minds to be illogical; I find people who can’t accept possibilities to be irrational. If you can not prove that something does not exist, then there is a possibility that it does and you should give that the full merit it deserves until you FULLY prove otherwise. What are YOU afraid of when it comes to trying to have faith in a God? Perhaps you tried to have faith once and expected to get things entirely your way and got something you wanted, but not in the way you expected. Perhaps you miscount all the coincidences in your life. Perhaps you’re overlooking things because you’re desperately running away from the love that is within your own heart. Or, perhaps, you are right and there is no God and everything is just senseless divisions that can no way be logically brought together.

The fact is that everything is in everything else. In each of us is the sum of every other man and woman and child. Our entire range of emotions is the entire range of emotions someone else experiences. We only experience them differently by what we choose to pull out of our selves and highlight. The universe is inside of us at the same time as being outside of us and those who use more than 10% of their brains are able to recognize this; for they feel it moving inside of them and they gain insights to problems that plague them as if pulling ideas out of thin air. The whole of life is encoded in every molecule.

When you remove all labels and words from the world and communication ceases, what do you see and what do hear? Does man still act the same without words, or is he more like the animal? Would we be better off without words or worse? We use words to describe what we feel and experience, but words never do it justice as people fail to understand them in full. Each person must come to feel the universe acting within them on their own and thus come to the Kingdom of Heaven on their own. As much as they hate religion, it couldn’t have been forced on them a single bit. Until people are willing to forgive themselves for their own self-destruction; destruction of the universe within themselves; and forgive themselves for destroying in small part the universe around them and then again the universe inside the others around them; things will not change.

They have often held the keys to deeper understanding and knowledge out of reach of the people out of jealousy and fear. Jealousy that people were living richer lives than them. Fear that something they didn’t understand was judging them, which it was, but only because they refused to understand it and lashed out viciously in their refusal.

And this goes throughout every aspect of life; back to psychology. The psychology of man and God remains the same no matter what institution they fall under and what labels they’re given. And certainly we are all connected more than we realize and so is every thing and every faith and every tool of man; everything.

Another person was giving me shit about the circular appearance of my thesis here and I tried explaining it to him, but he didn’t want to understand. He wanted to just see only in the physical realm and didn’t want to extend his mind out far enough to see that it is a balance. Every bad and good thing exist every day and at every turn in everyone and around everyone. Just the same as people have all of life inside of themselves and only bring out certain parts, the rest of the parts are brought out in everyone else; so when someone isn’t who they’re supposed to be, it makes everyone else out of whack, because they have to take up the slack. That is the very reason why ‘Christs’ appear; or ‘Saints’, or whatever you want to call them.

No person can be more or less than what they fully are and it becomes partly their choice what they become; at least they think they’re making a choice; but our lives are unfolded before us only to give us the illusion of choice as they carry us through; knowing the possibilities of the choices we will make based on the experiences we’ve been through; and they lead us through the many twists and turns of life before we finally come to realize that one simple fact: our fate never did give us a choice, and in fact manipulated us. Negative perceptions see this as a bad thing and positive ones accept it gracefully and thankfully. To say that all people have a choice to be one or the other is a lie. Those born in extreme darkness will never find light and those born in extreme light will never fully feel darkness. And yet, there are more in the middle than at either end and they are what keeps the yin and yang going and fluxing from one end to the other. We have been in the middle for quite some time, and we’ve already left an age of negativity before the middle was upon us; so I reckon we’re heading into good things in the future, though we’ll have to sit through some fireworks, first.

It’s really hard to explain this, because of how everything connects with everything else; it’s hard to keep on track and explain one thing without explaining everything else along with. I hope I’m making sense.

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In response to another person I was debating with on this subject:

How does one explain proof through coincidences to a person who does not find proof through coincidences? How does one explain a fantastically contrived idea or thought to a person who has denied such thoughts in themselves to find solace in a world of cold ‘facts’, where no solace can truly be found?

How does one explain sight to a person who does not see? How do you explain sounds to a person who does not hear? How do you explain taste to someone who was born without tastebuds? How do you explain love to people who are too afraid to accept it within themselves?

How does one explain that the universe is mirrored within our selves to the person who has yet to see it for themselves through their own progress? I do not seek to force faith on anyone here. You asked and you did receive, though. I posited a theory and my theory allows for yours, so how can any theory you posit be a contradiction?

I give you knowledge and it is your choice to accept that knowledge or not. I tried to share with you the peace I felt within myself and you denied it to make some small point toward the evils of men. Well, I know the evils of men, because I AM a man. If you think in anyway that any of us are truly different than any other, you’re mistaken. I simply made different choices and chose to look through different perceptions. I did not accept negativity as my dying vice; though I accept that it does exist and that it causes all sorts of detriment to society.

Whether God exists or not, a million other things still remain true on this earth and while people run from love and continue to persist in negativity and childish ways, they will continue to run right toward that prophecy made 2,000 years ago. Man often finds his destiny on the paths he takes to avoid it.

The problem isn’t that without God, people don’t want to take personal responsibility; the problem is that even WITH God, people didn’t want to take personal responsibility. We all feel pain and we all suffer, but there is that balance that must be upheld; for even those bound by negativity do love something and that something will go away if they play this game of life without respect for the opposing side.

All I have ever asked is for people to be at peace with who and what they are. There are serial killers out there who have never lost a nights sleep for all the deaths they had brought and some did but state clearly they had little control over themselves. How can I be a man of faith and say that that is any less a part of the overall scheme than anything else?

You see, there IS a balance; a yin and a yang and it fluxuates very peculiarly. You would think it would be a direct back and forth, but it makes a cycle and that cycle really can’t be denied no matter how hard we try and whether God exists or not. That cycle has been thus far that we exist in peace and harmony and people can’t accept certain truths of life or don’t wish to grow up and they try to take what other people have to make themselves rich with material devices instead of searching to find that richness inside of themselves.

When a person does find that richness inside of themselves then they surely do understand what is meant by ‘the universe is mirrored inside of us’ and they do understand ‘God’, even if they do not understand him by that name.

To claim that God is purely good is to claim a lie, for everything has a time and a place under the sun and even God was a child once, though now he has gotten older and has gotten more control of himself; but even that was planned for it was imprinted on the blueprints of everything itself. You see, I never said you did say that matter came from nothing; I was only showing you how that belief could be coincided with God.

Your perception is clouding your vision; that perception of negativity and I understand it all too well. I say things out of anger, still; and I do not feel shame for it because it is a learning lesson. Until that final day comes, no man can issue judgment on another and have it last.

Those stuck in negative perspectives in life will be stuck in those perspectives in death and they will experience true Hell at that time. Those who push through negativity to find positivity will find heaven on earth and when they die, they will experience true heaven; all because of their state of mind.

Do you think that I don’t know your fight? Do you think my fight has been any less? No, I only made less excuses for myself and pushed harder to overcome.

It’s not a matter of what people do or say, because we always serve that purpose; it all becomes a matter of perception. This truth has been hidden for so long that too many people have become negative and so it becomes a time for change regardless of God Existing or not; because of that balance that does exist in nature. People like to forget that the true yin-yang symbol has a spot of black in the white and a spot of white in the black; this is to show that no matter how great one or the other gets, they can’t ultimately wipe the other out and it will become more condensed and fight back.

But then it becomes a matter of repeating history and so they revolt and then take charge and make the same mistakes in time as past people in charge; and so government becomes the biggest detriment to mankind throughout history; and yet hasn’t been at the same time because we have pushed ourselves into a brighter future without even realizing it and against the best efforts of negativity and darkness to manipulate and corrupt for their own gain; because all around us now are the answers for how to live in harmony with nature and still live in luxury and we overlook those to make another dollar that means nothing.

Regardless of God, the division in men still need to come down and men still need to realize how similar they are to each other; for we all house the sum of each other within us, but based on our placement along the balance is how we pull it out of ourselves and show it to other people.

And, each person that is able to get control of themselves, should; for the better of our species, for we will surely destroy our selves before too much longer if things continue the way they’re going and surely we will destroy a large part of our species or have it destroyed by nature before too much longer; due to peoples unwillingness to accept self-sacrifice for the betterment of all men and women and for a true balance to be had. For, if each gave a little love and each took a little bit of the pain and suffering upon themselves, then we truly would all be equal. But people would rather try and run from that and get as much as they can without giving anything back and they find themselves continually shut out of places; or at least they used to.

Now, it’s come to the point where people bringing knowledge and peace are being shut out by the ignorant who willfully take from everyone else just to put themselves higher up than any other person; and it makes so many people soul-sick who refuse to give in to such pressure; for we are that little dot in all that darkness. And we will take back what is ours and everyones and with all of history behind us for us to have learned from and seen where the mistakes we made were; we shan’t make them again in the future; at least not for a long, long time.

The only word I know well enough to define what I know to exist is ‘God’ and yet my belief doesn’t fit the mainstream view of what God is; and yet it does at the same time. You want easy answers and there are none in life. You want easy paths, but all are hard. You want to stay in negativity? that’s your choice and it makes me sad that you would choose to be that rather to see yourself in a positive light.

Me grabbing control of myself and pulling myself out and seeing all of this around me and accepting the insanity of the truth only makes me more trusting in this thing called ‘God’; for surely he has done the same, through all circular thoughts that go the full length and then repeat on themselves. It is time for our species to grow up and put on the big boy pants and truly bring equality to this world, because all of us are God and none of us are. All of us special and none of us are. None of us are anything without others and you are no exclusion. You sit in negativity, yet you still need companionship and love to some extent. You are no monster and I have never called you one; though your stubbornness will cause you a lot of damage before you learn to just accept what is and to accept your part in all of this.

And trust me, whether you believe in a God-being, or not; one does surely exist and he does have consciousness and we are all connected if we choose to be. And, he is not happy with his own insanity and he is not happy with being stuck in such depressing states of mind. And, he is most surely learning from us as we learn from him at the same time as already knowing everything. Hence the entire exercise of life itself: to keep him occupied on the long, long, long trip through eternity until he finally dies and is reborn like a phoenix. He is the ultimate Black Hole from which all life stemmed and to which all life will return and so matter does not ever get destroyed; only recycled.

Whether you use the word ‘God’ or not, you’re still aware of this otherworldly being and you still know it quite intimately, for it IS you and everyone around you. Surely, we appreciate better the people who accept us at our worst and stick around to see us at our best. Why should this ‘God’ be any different, I wonder?

I did get angry; I did pass judgment on you and I do not regret it. I did break my computer monitor with how pissed I got over your willful ignorance of your own system of beliefs. I am not ashamed, for it is a very frustrating thing and I have not yet had the experience to truly have as much patience as I should. I don’t hold a grudge against you for being the way you are; because I can understand.

But, I got over myself and fairly quickly while you choose to remain stuck in those darkened pits for lack of trying to find a better way and all I have done here is tried to help people; whether you see it as help or not. And, I definitely do find more solace in having tried than having done nothing at all. I do believe myself to be a messenger of God because why would he give me all of the information he gives me without expecting me to use it; knowing my willingness to share what I know with others?

I once had the illusion of free will and I loved it; I made choices thinking I knew better and those choices lead me to make other choices in the long run; so I don’t expect people to just jump to attention and salute when I bring them news of God and I don’t expect them to jump on board a ‘fan club’ that I used to make fun of just because I tell them to. I am only following my purpose in life; my fate; and there is really nothing you or anyone else can do about it.

I once wanted to live a different life. I wanted to have kids and a wife and I wanted to go to work and make money and I wanted to be successful in society. I wanted so many things other people had, but life is what happens while making other plans. I keep my eyes open for those things, still, but they aren’t coming any time soon on the visible horizon, though they might blindside me still.

I do what I do because I know where I have been and I truly did regret all of the things I did while in those places of my mind and I wanted to help other people for when they finally hit that point inside of themselves and started regretting all the harsh words they used to say without reason; just to lash out at the world. So, I give knowledge so that when they finally do get to that point, they can make the transition better than I did; because I did it without outside assistance and hated every minute of it. It was far more than any man should have to deal with and only exists because society is the way it is; God is currently the way he is.

I still love you and everyone else and I still love God for all of this; how can I not for all the hurt I caused others in my own life? I know that everything happens for a reason and it’s designed to teach us things, but it still hurts us when we do things that hurt others. There came a time in our own history where people decided they’d rather be loved than to actually love someone else enough to set them free; or to even try.

I’m just putting an end to that out-dated practice at my own expense, because I would much rather have friends. I just got thrown out of my best friends house tonight because he was chewing out his son and going overboard because he had a bad day; and his son also had had a bad day and barked back. His son is 28 and lives in another house on the same property and rules were put in place; strict ones; that his son broke. The reason for the rules being in place were because of moments in the past where the son lost himself to drugs and the wrong crowds of friends. He has been doing much better since he’s been back and and I tried talking sense and reason to my friend.

It didn’t help his anger any; he turned on me and said that I wasn’t his friend and never had been; conveniently forgetting all that I have done for him over the years and how much he has stepped on me accidentally without even realizing it and I didn’t get mad; I kept calm and I didn’t deny what he said, I was just trying to make him realize that his son was doing much better now and that he had jumped the gun.

His son will probably move out, now and it only further distances them from each other and it might be what makes his son go back to those other drugs and lose all that he’s made for himself at the moment. Father kicked son out; son said he was moving out; friend (me) tried to make the father see that not everything was as it seemed to him during this moment of his negative perception, but he wasn’t having it. He just wanted somebody to blow up on and for them to take it, and he found enough reason over minor bullshit to do so.

The fact is that it makes me very sad to see people fight like that and it makes me even sadder because I lost a good friend due to his persistence to be angry. I don’t expect him to hate me forever, but it still hurts. He will inevitably get over himself and in a couple months or so, he’ll welcome me back; but he probably won’t have learned anything new, because he, too, refuses to see his own over-reactions and his own addition to his problems that make his problems what they are.

Every man and woman and child cause their own pain after a while by their perceptions and by their responses to those perceptions. It doesn’t matter whether someone has your best intentions in mind or not if you just see them as a waste of time, life and flesh. It doesn’t matter if they had information that could change everything about how you view life, if you fail to accept it and count it as silly folly.

What more can I say? What more can I do? What more can I add to this that will make you understand any better that it has always been you working against you and nobody else? What can I say to make you realize that you are afraid of loving with all of your heart for fear of being hurt? What can I do to get you to do anything you don’t want to do? Absolutely nothing. I can only show you the way.

Please, have a good day; there’s already too many people having bad ones.

4

Um… if god is both aspects of every dichotomy, why have you referred to it as “He”?

5

Because I am a guy and unintentionally or not, in some way I am sexist; though I try not to be.

I see our Earth as our Mother which carries us in her womb and the Sun as our Father. Of course God is both male and female and there is no true divide. Like I said, I’m just a guy. It sounds better than ‘it’ and I find myself having trouble calling ‘it’ a ‘her’, though certainly it would be no bad thing.