I had a rough night, and was upset about liz, and thought about many other things.
I will confine the list to an search for God which took hold of me and practically shook me to the roots. I think I came to an understanding of God, an understanding so different from the one held previously.
Everybody posting on religious topics may be disappointed but I have found out last night
That there really is no god, at least in the conventional interpretation,
I think there is a logos, and it is a logos of understanding. The logos is in the center of everything, and it is a place of infinitesimally spatial/temporal state. Now everything is in this place, all the attributes of God-perfect knowledge included.
The way this knowledge disseminates with creation, is exactly as described in genesis in the beginning…and prophesied toward the end the culmination with the end of times.
Creation is a physical, cognitive and spiritual event, with these three types of energies being really one energy. This is the holy trinity. The description of violating God’s law over the forbidden fruit, is a description of man, eager to become as God. It is the first test of faith. That test, actually doomed this creation to it’s self destruction, because it brought in along with faithlessness, fear and insecurity into the world.
One of the commandments of God was that He shall have no other gods worshiped before him. We have violated that commandment.
The science mankind developed has become that other God,and we have become emboldened in it’s worship, thinking anything can ultimately be known.
Reality develops necessarily with This need to know, but the knowledge God entrusted man was limited to knowledge of Him, the creator. But man could not live well enough alone, and in essence his science sought to equal that of God, in effect trying to become a creator himself.
The logos, the ultimate essence of all things is the ultimate price, and fear and insecurity increases exponentially, as science tends to give the impression of approaching this limit. The limit is essentially a of discernibility, the discernment of the de-differentiated nature of god, as the holy trinity in one. It is fearful to approach any limit because of the uncertainty of finding out what is beyond it.
The creation finding it’s own cause has to do with the uncertainty of finding one’s self in that very cause, beyond that limit.
Will man find himself as god united with god, as part of the holy trinity?
Unlikely if we believe in the bible verbatim. More likely is the alternative, the opposite of the big bang, the singularity sucking in it’s own creation in a final act. I believe this is the significance of the original act of disobedience, and the alpha/omega will reappear in another creation, eternally reappeared until finally the state of absolution is reached.
At that point that absolute will join the eternal essence of spatial temporal infinitum within it’s own negation, and become at one with god.
I think in this sense, Nirvana can individually be achieved through samsara, as a singular example of cosmic forces.