I’ve processed more information on earth than anyone.
I run - experienced life - and - sentences - like math problems. This is the purest distillation:
I feel horrible if…
1.) I don’t always get everything I want
2.) If I get what I want and someone else wants it but doesn’t or can’t have it
3.) If I have friends
4.) If I have no friends
5.) If I have enemies
That’s it.
Obviously existence doesn’t work for a being like me.
I have zero option. I have to structurally change it.
We’re all eternal beings. I don’t fit here.
Someday in the vastness of infinity, you will be me in your own way.
No. I have lost allreadt" thinking nothing to loose but loss itself thinking what Kerouac said " I accept loss for ever"
But look what happened to his daughter , a fledgling writer,
I can not go along with him, and although I accept him on principle as u do you, I can not forsake the ones dependent …
Independence traded for (4( slavery yes but can not afford the real thing might as well go 4 s(t)simulation if u get what git’s it.
The one thing you can never lose is God’s unchanging love. It helps to return to that when experiencing loss. It helps more if you never come unanchored from it, but. We all do. Without exception.
But if you solve everything, then you’ll be super super bored. And solving it for everyone else will rob them of not being bored. So why don’t you look on having something to solve as a blessing. Rather than letting it bum you out, why don’t you consider it a fun game? A game you take very seriously, but it’s still fun.
There is nothing inherently wrong with getting what you want without consequence.
If what you want violates the Golden Rule, it’s a broken thing you want. Brokenness doesn’t happen without real wholeness. So YOU are the one pointing to perfection. I’m just sitting here minding my own business.