This is the pinnacle of all philosophy

I’ve processed more information on earth than anyone.

I run - experienced life - and - sentences - like math problems. This is the purest distillation:

I feel horrible if…

1.) I don’t always get everything I want
2.) If I get what I want and someone else wants it but doesn’t or can’t have it
3.) If I have friends
4.) If I have no friends
5.) If I have enemies

That’s it.

Obviously existence doesn’t work for a being like me.

I have zero option. I have to structurally change it.

We’re all eternal beings. I don’t fit here.
Someday in the vastness of infinity, you will be me in your own way.

Maybe you intuit you already are.

No. I have lost allreadt" thinking nothing to loose but loss itself thinking what Kerouac said " I accept loss for ever"
But look what happened to his daughter , a fledgling writer,
I can not go along with him, and although I accept him on principle as u do you, I can not forsake the ones dependent …

Independence traded for (4( slavery yes but can not afford the real thing might as well go 4 s(t)simulation if u get what git’s it.

The one thing you can never lose is God’s unchanging love. It helps to return to that when experiencing loss. It helps more if you never come unanchored from it, but. We all do. Without exception.

There is no god with a spirit like mine. That’s a non starter. My spirit hurts no matter what happens under those conditions I listed.

Anyone who’s as bored as me can only find stimulation in building and not destroying. Destroying is easy, building is the only challenge left.

Kerouac gave up. He did not think he could change all existence structurally.

My meta cognition in this reality structure is my OP.

I have to solve those 5 problems for everyone just to be happy for once and forever.

But if you solve everything, then you’ll be super super bored. And solving it for everyone else will rob them of not being bored. So why don’t you look on having something to solve as a blessing. Rather than letting it bum you out, why don’t you consider it a fun game? A game you take very seriously, but it’s still fun.

Stop reverse psychoanalyzing me, Ec.

Ichthus. If you truly believe this reality is perfect as it is. You can stay here forever.

Not everyone thinks like you.

That’s called, “theory of mind”.

If I reflect all the infinite spirits into my reality…

I have inexhaustible joy forever on my own terms.

And it doesn’t affect you at all.

I am well aware that the current situation is broken. But the current situation is not the end of the story. and your solution solves nothing.

Ichthus.

I know this is astonishing to you.

There are real beings who enjoy getting what they want without consequence.

How is that astonishing?

Because you don’t accept it.

When something bothers someone, you declare it’s perfection.

Every sentence you make.

There is nothing inherently wrong with getting what you want without consequence.

If what you want violates the Golden Rule, it’s a broken thing you want. Brokenness doesn’t happen without real wholeness. So YOU are the one pointing to perfection. I’m just sitting here minding my own business.

The golden rule is shit for so many reasons.

Hyper empath masochists.

What if someone wants to have a limb chopped off…

Not even masochists.

Should everyone do that?

What happens if a person had their limb chopped off against their will, but they chose to pull an eye out.

That violates the golden rule.

What if you forgive everything?

Are you forgiven for everything?

I hate psychopaths like you.

Nobody wants to be bothered.

Since you’re a psychopath, you don’t understand that.

It’s impossible for you to understand that people just want what they want and it doesn’t bother anyone… forever.

If people wanting what they want doesn’t bother anyone, then what problem are you trying to solve?

Mind you… merely being bothered is not a good enough reason to stop someone from getting what they want.

Ichthus.

Before I leave.

I’m going to give you the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit forever.

That’s your fetish.

You also have a fetish of suffering to experience joy.

I’ll give you that as well.

And then I’ll leave.

I’ll even give you a planet with other actual beings.

And then I’ll leave.

I don’t need that from you. And you can’t give that to anyone. Why are you trying to be my Lord & Savior, Ec? Let’s just be friends.

Ichthus. You don’t understand. I never want to come back to a world like this ever again.

In order to accomplish that… I need to know what everybody wants. I would never make your choice(s).

My goal is to never have to come back.

Where are you going? How are you getting there? On other people’s dreams?

Who are you… Santa Claus?

Ichthus.

I would never make your choices.

I’m going to step off this plane of existence knowing I don’t have to return.

You want to suffer to feel joy.

Before I leave, I’m giving that to you.

That’s your fetish. That’s your apologetics of the Bible.

Have your wish fulfilled. You can even have Santa.

I don’t want Santa. He’s not even real.

You can’t bring me joy (too late) & then leave. What do you say to that?

All of us are going to leave a hyperdimensional mirror copy of all the knowledge of existence when we leave.

When I leave, we leave.

But you’ll be left with all of us. As one person.

We’re not abandoning you.

We’re not going to rule the world …

Just slight nudges in personal conversations.