its weird, i think ive gained the ability after feeling it while stoned, it feels exactly like it. kinda like this weird rush thing that starts in your stomach and rushs all through your body, it reaches a peak, it gets so powerful i slightly twitch, and my jaws open, it then goes down. its pretty cool. no im not stoned right now. i can control it and do it at any time. but usually its better to be relaxed when i do it. and i also notice that if i’ve done it recently, if i try to do it again its not as strong. i remember being able to do since i was very very young, i would close my eyes while trying to sleep, and pretend i was swirling in circles, and then after a while it would feel weird in my stomach, and it would help me sleep. its different now, its stronger. my teacher brought up something i thought it might be. intrinsic energy, or “chi” is used in tai chi, and they can feel something when they do there exercises, called chi. it supposed to be controllable, and if you use it right, certain parts of your body can heal quicker. but i dont know if it matches with my thing. I dont think i can feel it while moving around so much, like they do in tai chi. i have to be still.
does anyone else have this controllable feeling thing?