I regularly take deep hallucinogenic trips into my mind to alleviate the depression that slowly builds over thr months and hovers over every aspect of my life as facilitated by the fact that 99% of people have no fucking idea about anything that occurs on this planet.
I study international financial market trends on a daily basis within the accessibility of the internet where I know with almost certainty that the global economical structure will collapse.
Reading I sit back and smile enjoying the sweet irony of everything.
It is entertaining. I switch back between twenty updated websites daily.
I am chronically unemployed with a lot of empty spare time…
Do you mean drugs? I used to do the same thing until I realize that using drugs isn’t sustainable. There is always a collapse, a burn out, a come down, a hang over, a depression, a lack of. I needed more …
Me too! I usually feel guilty after, especially if I watched pornography. It feels good while you’re doing it but sometimes I can’t help but think of how lonely and embarrassing it is! I’m doing this amazing thing of pleasuring my body but it is a shame to do it alone… but I refuse to sleep with men I do not love … and I’m estranged from my lover at this point in time … so … sexual frustration, I’m not sure if estranged is the right word but I think it is…
These drugs are, without a doubt, healing gifts from mother nature. When I went through my ‘waking up’ stage in life I was dramatically helped by the introspective, self-therapeutic nature of the experience, and was able to cope with finding out that most of what I thought was true was arrived to be from vastly different means.
Weed can be overused, and basically is by everyone who smokes regularly (most people who are potheads smoke daily, and even Terrence Mckenna, who admitted he smoked daily/too much, figured out the optimal cycle for someone wanting to smoke weed often, biologically, is once a week.) So, while it’s pretty much the light-hearted drug you can do, it does pose certain psychologically addictive risks imo. Depends on if you make money by being creative or not lol.
I hardly ever touch synthetics. I want to cultivate my psychic potential, rather than diminish it. I drink too much.
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Work-out daily or as much as possible,
Watch the E! Emtertainment channel as it airs some amusing shows on there.
Shop on eBay for new additions to my wardrobe and shoe collection.
Text my pals.
Sup on my home-made red wine.
Go party in town and flirt with da men.
I did shrooms, LSD, e, pcp, salvia, nutmeg, haha
It was a matter of desperately escaping my mind than going on a trip. I am the problem, not drugs. Drugs were never the problem, it was always me and my addictive personality and how much I used to hate myself. I respect and admire people who can use recreational drugs, especially hallucinogens, my favourite, and put it aside for a while. I know how deep the trips can get. I used to do shrooms and watch horror films like the exorcist and poltergeist. My mind was just so desensitized to everything, it didn’t matter what I did anymore. Weed was what I used to come down, my saving grace. Not. I’m glad I’m over it now and that I can just live life on life terms. I loved the spiritual trips I went on but at the end life was always waiting for me. I hated that part enough to stop escaping reality. I know of Terrance Mckenna, he felt so guilty near the end of his life, thinking drugs did him in. Poor guy.
I felt very dizzy, vertigo, nauseated. My vision became clearer and colours were brighter. The high lasted about 6 hours. I felt stoned and also a bit of that trip out feeling. So… a bit on the hallucinogenic side but still more of a stoned feeling. I ate the nutmeg by putting it in balls of white bread and eating it. I must have taken about 15 grams.