You think you want something.
You get it too quickly and decide it isnāt for you.
You talk yourself out of it and decide you want something else.
You then realize that what you had was better than what you think you wanted. But that wasnāt all that good either. Then you finally realize that dreaming about what you want is so much better than really wanting it or getting it in the first place. Are you following me?
saddly i can not, i well never beable to PROVE it to you, itās something you well have to experience. you well never see it if someone is showing it to you.
A girlfriend.
A drum machine.
A Korg Kaoss Pad.
An electric guitar.
An amp to go with it.
For The Smiths to do a reunion show.
To have sex with my girlfriend (see first entry)
To get all my library books read.
To be attending Oxford University (UK), obtaining a degree in PPP
A father figure to be injected into my memorial past
A father that is not in the insane asylum or on the other side of town with a new son and a new wife.
To make my hair grow longer because it does not look right with my new glasses.
To not need glasses.
To get a better cell phone.
To speak and understand all Earth languages so that I can talk to anybody
A bacon, mushroom, swiss burger full dressed, some steamed shrimp, crab and lobster on the side with several cups of garlic butter and coctail sauce. A great big bottle of orange soda, pototo chips, granola bars the soft kind, eggs poached in milk with buttered toast. A great big salad with ranch dressing and croutons, BBQed ribs with potato salad and spicy pork and beans, a pitcher of unsweet iced tea, Ooooooh my homemade chili from scratch oooooohhhh Yea thats it, get in my belly!
what flavor of granola bar? just straight granola?
what i want right now:
āto not have put all my homework off and stayed up until 3 last night doing it.
āto drink all the mountain dew i want and not be unhealthy
āreasonably decent vegetarian food instead of cheese pizza or peanut butter every day
āto be able to understand why i act certain ways around certain people and why i canāt let things go sometimes
āto be able to play guitar or piano really really well, even though i know that takes years of work that i donāt want to go through
āto draw something great that i wonāt hate ten minutes after i finish it
āto watch a good movie with somebody
āto be able to rid myself of certain characteristics that i hate about myself (mental and physical)
āto have time for all the things i want to do
āa couple thousand dollars i can change peopleās lives with
āchoir music that doesnāt suck
āsomething useful to do with my time
āto play piano at the bottom of an escalator
āfor people to start living life by common sense and practicality, so that we can design things that work efficiently and make peopleās lives easier