What makes me angry is snow, but in a good way, Good anger. Anger that makes you want to chop trees.
It also makes me peaceful, in other moments. Like when I chopped a tree and stand over it, breathing clouds into the white birchland.
i really don’t quite know for sure either
it snowed like 2 feet here a few weeks ago
Like, “Laissez-Faire” with a nice moral dressing.
When I was young,
i had divine expectations for the world.
The world didn’t live up to my expectations,
so i felt angry at the world for its amorality.
This lead to hate.
Constant hate at the constant amorality of nature.
So much hate compressed into a ball.
This was a feed back loop of crazy.
Now I find death as the most upsetting thing,
and i am hardly upset about death.
Every other reason for being upset,
is usually petty. Getting worked up over nothing.
I feel like Mr Reasonable here.
Anger doesn’t belong in a fine life.
I hope i can be buddha-like.
If not now then later.
Eventually.
Dan, you have two choices:
Existence is violating the consent of all beings in one form or another, some worse than others.
You can model existence or you can say “fuck you” to existence and try to violate as little consent as possible, try to make a perfect plan. Without a new plan, existence is hopeless, and you will be a ball of hate no matter who you are once a person consciously understand that existence is violating everyone’s consent.
The biggest crime in existence is stomping on someone’s heart while having your best time!
How many hearts to stomp on for one person?
Been there, done that. (Massive internal and external hatred there)
When I came through the other side, the concept of ignorance truly dawned on me. All of us will learn forever… there is however a critical mass where you begin consciously working through hatred.
One concept that has plagued humanity is blasphemy; a toll of the scared elite who don’t want to be overthrown. There is only reputation among spirits…
If you spend forever not building it up, technically, that would be hell forever. Other than that, blasphemy is a lie.
I’m not just in the business of posting on these boards, I’m a shaman who had to learn the hard way how to soothe the spirit world; to be a leader (Not thee leader, there is no such thing) at 44 years old for billions of souls.
Most people on earth haven’t had the massive training I’ve had from the spirit world. Many are scared shitless of living forever, so they compensate by being “dust to dust people”.
You have to have the might to plan your forever.
You have to have the courage and wits to stand up to existence - that’s life Dan~
The dead are those who model existence. Again, existence is violating everyone’s consent. The dead and dull just “go with the flow”; they don’t care about solving the pleasurable exclusive access problem at all… they have scared “monkey see, monkey do” spirits. They look for the dominance of husbands, wives, children - they celebrate exclusive access rather than avoid and eschew it. You can live in relative joy without the cognitive dissonance. I’m a testament to this.
Rage is part of Taoisms 5 emotions that we need to have to be sane.
These are, in the order of experience considered to be the most healthy order; joy (heart), worry (spleen), sorrow (lungs), fear (kidneys), anger (liver), joy.
Avoiding (repressing) any of these emotions will result in disease.
In what way could you, E D?
It’s the only thing that irks/annoys me, is when others test and micro manipulate me… I either ignore or correct it, depending on the situation and circumstance… for if such things aren’t quickly corrected, they become a precedent for future interactions with over-zealous a-holes. I do not like the over-zealous, as they seek instantly-gratified highs.
One thing that gets me very angry is betrayal.
It makes me so insanely rageful that I really need to control myself to not do stupid things.
In my school days I would resort to violence when angry, if a guy would insult my sister for example he would be fucked up for a good while.
When I started smoking weed I became more tolerant. But there is nothing good about tolerance in this sense and Ive been reducing it since a few years.