Ever since, I began my philosophy study, my heart begin to feel like a wuss and a wimp. MY brain tells me that, when I speak I sound like a pussy. So nice and melody.
But my heart tells me differently. IF I were to curse, begin to become prideful, full of desire, I would be chaotic. Let faith, and nature be your guide.
Then my brain says, if you do not strive for something, have a goal, without any plan you will fail, so faith cannot help you.
( ahhhh, my brain is swelling )
Dan, another thought provoking mind-fart, and a wet one at that.
Sometimes when we want something too badly we act too soon, before the perfect time to strike, and miss the target.
Dan, what is my meaning as it relates to philosophy?
Never listen to your brain, Dan! 
The male ape wants to dominate.
The ape-man does some abstracting in order to dominate.
The man abstracts himself into empathetic anxiety;
a mind of working ethical concerns, thrown into an environment where the back of the mind views dominant behaviors as a measure of success, brings cognitive dissonance.
I am not a doctor, the language you all are speaking I cannot understand.
But I do understand , Phaedrus point.
Problems can’t be created or destroyed
Tell that who is passing out the exam.
My bad, I’ll explain what I meant.
Man still has a lot of primitive remnants in his behavior. Communicating with the body and emotions was always, until recently, our main form of communication. We have to remember that, although we think the way we do, we are still “animals.”
Like most animals, apes (and humans) make dominant displays. We don’t think about it very much, because we can think pretty abstractly, and in a way “dominance” in life is associated with certain abstractions: pursue of wealth is a big one.
However, behaviors of male dominance can be easily seen in certain “players” that have simple “methods” of getting laid (although, of course, certain males do this naturally, they don’t use a special method, but it’s easiest to explain it with the method many males follow at clubs, parties, whatever to get willing girls). Such dominant behaviors include posture, sustained eye contact, a loud voice, etc.
All of these behaviors can be summarized as “confidence.” The confidence to do whatever you want whenever and wherever you want to whoever you want. Dominant dogs will walk right up to another dogs dish and start eating from it, “This is mine.”
This kind of confidence, this pursue towards dominant behaviors, is how our culture teaches male children to act. To succeed, to compete, to be the best.
When I say the “ape-man” I mean a man of today whose chief concerns are animalistic. They seem to live to eat, have sex, etc. All their thoughts and behaviors (whether they are aware of it or not) fit into a pattern of their group’s traditional beliefs so that they can appear as authorities on popular topics, goals, and concerns. This isn’t to downplay the true friendship that can exist between friends, regardless of how “macho” they act towards each other, so don’t take me as a misanthrope. I’m just saying that male boys are not taught to question the world, they are taught to acept it as it is explained to them, and attempt to be the best at mastering it.
People who end up in philosophy, on the other hand, focus on “truth,” or at least focus on weeding out the bullshit. The more you train your mind to think critically, the more sensitive you are to different perspectives, different possiblities.
And THIS is “wussy/pussy/unmanly”
With a sensitivity to the fact that there have to be some points you are not sure of, there have to be things about the world that you don’t know, you don’t have the same conviction to your voice that male dominant/macho/manly behavior has. You simply can’t, you know very well that what you are saying is merely an opinion.
When I say a man thinks himself into empathetic anxiety, I am claiming that as man gets more intelligent and starts genuinely trying to view things in an objective manner, he can’t help but become more senstive to other’s beliefs, thoughts and ideas. He understands that others are confused and feel pain just as he does.
So, with some humility, he starts becoming more ethical towards others. If he still has the feeling in the back of his mind (and sensing the atmosphere in a social situation/perceiving the behaviors of other’s body language) that dominance is something to be onbtained in order to be “successful” (having a worthwhile life) he can have “cognitive dissonance”-a mental disagreement between one’s beliefs and the way he acts. Act out of your ethical concerns, but then worry that maybe you are not acting the way you should be. Try acting in dominant ways, and feel like it is below yourself, not true with your ideals.
This brings feelings of anxiety/insecurity, because until one can decide, fully committed, on how to act, they can’t be confident that they are acting the right way.
There is a correlation between philophers, intelligence, and depressive symptoms. Less intelligent people just act from past experiences of reward and punishment, and modeling. The more intelligent can’t help but make connections between abstractions and realize when they contradict themselves.
The price of taking control of your freedom as a thinking human being, and creating yourself into the person you want to be, is having to obsessively try to figure out what kind of person you SHOULD be.