I extend my post:
If existence is subjective, ur here for whatever reason u wanna be here for, if anything and if you even want to be here at all. It would depend on the subjective perception of the perceiver and what they compare their reasons for being here to, with their limited subjective logic, imagination and abilities to perceive conceptually that we each learn individually to create our personal values and meanings from. And thus it would be open to subjective interpretation.
If existence is objective, then you can only guess because objective reasons are not provable to a subjective living human mind in the state all our minds are in. For everything to be properly provable when you’re there and not there, you need to experience it (and you can’t when you are dead) and you’d need to experience it objectively with and without conceptualisation (not possible to us) with logic and without logic and all the other alternatives etc. Ie experience everything as though you were everything, ie objectively.
Maybe you can do this when you’re dead through ‘God’ if you really want to, maybe not. Personally I don’t see any point in it or any reason why this would be the case if you could do this when you were dead. Maybe there is one, maybe not. We’ll find out. Or not.
Only subjective existence is provable to a subjective perception because we know we exist since we’re experiencing it and thats what we have dubed ‘proof’. Theoretical proof is based on assumption and limited abilities to perceive, imagine and interpret logically and it is subjective. Hence nothing objective can be proven to it. So we’ll never ‘know’.
To me, everything is just a bunch of stuff that seems to be in constant change according to causality. Everything that everything does is affected by everything else, all decisions are based on a product of experience and a limited hereditary capacity to act on subjectively perceieved experiences that are out of your control because they depend on everything, not just you, and it only ever happens one way. (A little off topic, thats my fate arguement).
I think its there because it always was there, things don’t have to be put somewhere to exist. If god were to have put us here, he’d have to exist outside everything, which would mean he was nothing and hence never existed. Or he is everything, in which case he can’t have made himself from nothing because you can’t make anything if you have nothing to make it from. Unless god was nothing as well, which implies nothing is something which its not. This just goes round in circles and doesn’t make sense and would kind of dis-prove God’s supposed role as the creator. Subjectively at least… (Thats my God argument).
So I assume, using my personal limited subjective perception that everything was always there and it is infinite (since it is everything which has nothing outside it and hence has no boundaries) and therefore can’t have symmetry, hence everything not being ‘perfect’ and seemingly random.
Am I wrong? How would u know? You can only think I am or not subjectively, at least for now.