I’m involved in fair trade, and I can’t say I really love what I’m doing, so now I stay in it because I view it as a hobby that I can do whatever I want with. Everytime I learn about fair trade principles and its general history though, I always end up forgetting important details that other members of my group seem to know offhand. Is there a reason why I can’t remember this stuff?
If I really don’t have a heart for something, is that the sole reason why I will never absorb and retain information as well as other, more active members of the fair trade group?
Additionally, I always uncover great truths as I walk back and forth from my university to the GO train, but then I forget them a day later. If I am convinced that they are great advancements, I wonder why I forget? Its like nothing sticks in my brain except for some very strange things.
I’m not sure there really is an answer…my theory is I forget because I have no motivation to remember. Then, what is the basis for motivation? Motivation would be a natural extension of your self, what one feels is “right” to do. Or in some cases it is enforced, like studying for an exam.
Then it is clear to me that enforced motivation (and its weaker brother, self-enforcement - ie. I promise myself I will quit smoking, lose weight, learn about fair trade etc.) is useless. But then even my natural motivation for asking questions and realizing great truths does not leave me with lasting knowledge, for I forget it the next day. And I really thought these were amazing insights!!
So then, motivation is not really a factor. Its interesting to me, that in retrospect, the things I remember I learned when I was relaxed and stress-free. Free inquiry and pure interest, with an empty mind, allow for remembrance, while a clogged, over-burdened mind filled with thoughts can never retain the information it learns.
Hmm…now I wonder, why do I learn at all? Am I enforcing myself to learn to maintain an image, or because I feel I must head in a certain direction? Is there such thing as learning without having a destination in mind? I feel like that latter is true learning. Spontaneous learning…these are my stream of consciousness thoughts. What do you all think? Why do we forget? Is it related to the basic question of why do we learn? Hmmm
EDIT: of course! My final paragraph makes the concept clear. If we learn for self-image, then that is enforcement. But often one may learn when one feels he is free, when really the underlying reason is unconscious in its nature. I learn science…because I love it? Or because I want to be like Einstein? Those who are not aware of their motivations are doomed to learn based on self-coercive “motivational” factors, and thus will never learn at all. So, the answer is, one must learn the mind before one learns a subject, indeed understand why the subject is being learned at all. Yay! Unless I’m wrong…there might be some things I haven’t considered. I guess I’ll just leave this here…hopefully it won’t get deleted as I like this post. Its a nice summation of my fluid thoughts.