Why is it that every person I have met and had any kind of relationship, throughout my entire life, never fails to severely disappoint me one-way or another?
I know my expectations and faith in people is too high, extremely too high. My standards for others are leagues beyond the average…
I know people are not perfect; I know people make mistakes…
But is it so much to ask…
For honesty? For self honesty? To not be hypocrites? I don’t really care if people lie to me in the end … but why lie to yourself? That is what kills me.
Because you expect the impossible in an ever-repeating cycle of disappointment. If yuo were enjoying the cycle, I’d say good luck to you. But you don’t seem to be. So change (not lower, just change) your standards. Make them more human. See what is good and strong and inspiring about people, because there’s plenty there despite all the shit.