it is very hard for me to say all i see in this truth it is so connected to all as everything we see is of minus and plus as einstein confirm it in light, i can see what God is saying of the reason we are here, and the issue of Him He knew, the sense we could choose, problems we will never reslove, evil bringing out from this truth of the both views to confirm what sacrifices are, it is very hard to say all what i think but i have to at least start on the most crucial feeling i got, me and superiority love, everything has a solution it is never an end that is what God says in me, we just have to see closer what we are doing in being if we want to move to else doing, i always felt frustrating the sense of superiority the world is giving, of what i see it completely different in depth and were thankful to God in my life that He allowed me to justify it silentely without saying of a word hoping it was true as the most precious gift i would get, it is so hard to say as it is an extremely specific view of things and happenings, i never liked all i saw every day but was happy to find out the mind i felt trying to guess an inner reality of all you see that i could work more on it terms to make it only my reality in all surfaces i am,intelligence, superiority, i use to love instinctively those words but it wasnt at all what others say and not God even i was disppointed that everything everywhere is always the same it is only a different combination of the same, and this same is not saying at all what intelligence or superiority is on the contrary it is only saying that superiority is what make man live in his inferiority of hell, as i use to feel, intelligence is something you love for itself a sense to be and not for to survive in lies of not being, the same for superiority in being for me it was like someone who enjoys feeling depth of what is outside not necessarly to know himself like God says that everything you see is the same you, but something really different you will enjoyu really to experience and to be but than again you will leave when you know for something other different could be completely different that you would love to explore, it is a nature of wishing seeing yourself getting the most of what you can feel and see for ever, you imagine that those scenes you want to study would be always different but also in a sense of more complex, as your mind would ask to enjoy,
I was forced to judge my nature badly at a very early stage of my life for this i was very thankful to destiny who appear to me as a will to allow me doing the right by being more conscious of the depth, give me a chance to justify my soul in the best i can value objectively of what i see, it took me a second to through all my fake dreams away, i saw how deep desire of being above would mean that you are not real that all you want is fantasy and you don’t take anything seriously, this i couldnt allow seeing the serious of our condition as very abusif in fears desperatly needing love to give yourself the only meaning of being in that condition, i saw how all my dreams of travelling in the name of bigger truths would be stepping on much bigger truth of me willing always true love carying a lot of others suffer as it appear clearly to me the reality i am being in that i didnt see, but i didnt thought of giving away the essence of my dreams i was thinking taking time for this walking with God secretly how i could justify that the essence is right it is just your limits of not being in your dreams that cannot allow you to think being in, but don’t deny your depth who is making all your desire to be alive who is your sense of being, it is a matter of adjusting it in each second of your life to what is real, this if you can will allow a much more powerful sense of being, like for instance your wish of being free of all conditionning reality to what you would pick to see and leave whenever you feel like it, i like that it is so horful to me the feeling i am stuck, well this conscience of what you are combine with the truth of slavery condition lackness of compassion and love, will allow you to live your dream of being beyound in a more real sense of being when you are dealing with yourself of being slave, than freedom is real when you see it clearly of love, than you can really be beyond of what is responsable of all evil done especially of your thoughts to be beyound, than being beyound become a reality of growing up man, not just a sense that would make you be miserable in destroying everything in your hands, you will thank God for reminding you that you are nothing and that left alone you will not do anything but bad because you are so small and cannot picture anything of what you never saw is done, love truth is really beyound the maximum you can get of yourself alone, this is what God showed me of my loving to truth, it is maybe beyound God Himself, He made all that to preapre me saying his truth i see that now, in that i thank Him for releasing me a little of my need to always justify my ego, He finally telling me that i have nothing of evil and it is true that i never could make any evil, i never meant but innocence and i never had a pleasure of smarter this is true, it all meant for me to meet love beyound everything as to meet God in his pleasure to dominate, when i say love as a supreme value of being, it doesnt mean compassion and giving, it is beyound, to understand you have to reach the feeling in absolute meeting another of you, it is whole different world that alone as this true valuable truth without all it could inspire you to be, worse to not do any for you just to feel meeting another being