Life is learning not passing time. Existence here is about learning life and death not passing time. Energy given and wasted does not give what is needed after. Passing time leaves you utterly ignorant for the next phase.
Each year adds value to life, unless you stand still.
Standing still is just death. Life is about change and learning and growing. More knowledge, more experience, more of everything.
THe paradox is health which inevitably declines. Thus when you are at your greatest you are closest to death.
You’ve many problems as you have admitted.
You need a goal or two, and stop the self pity, then you can can grow. But being fucked up and not at peace with yourself will mean you are standing still; churned up, confused, angry. But there is still time. You are very , very young and might yet learn.
And…he gives the meaning making response, right on schedule.
So I guess the goal of life is to become a hazy liberal Levi who has the blinds on to reality, that is moving forward, alright. Opening your eyes to reality, and realising the world isn’t so peaches and roses, causing you to enjoy life less…that’s standing still.
I am not convinced of this in spite of its zen like focus. As one can pass time by learning and part of that is in realising that your
existence is only finite. Energy would only be wasted if after learning this absolute truth one then chose to deny it for whatever
reason. And I also make a point at my age in life to avoid a fixed world view simply because that might turn out to be false. So I
accept what I know to be objectively true and for everything else I keep an open mind. I have probably relatively little time left
here and I think it would be better spent learning why human beings think the way they do. Rather than listening to the voice in
my head. Though it is not as loud as it used to be. I wish it were silent but since it is a work in progress then I have to be patient
Theyre actually part of the same 4 dimensional thing.
4 dimensional thing doesnt mean a spaceship. It means a process which repeats itself. See, time is considered the 4th dimension. You are also a 4 dimensional thing, like the chicken-egg combo.
Once upon a time, the chicken-egg protoform was so small one would confuse it for a single form. Its transition chick-egg-chick-egg went so fast it couldnt be perceived.
Of course it didnt resemble a chicken, but probably it did resemble an egg.
So theres your answer, the egg was the form which appeared first. But behind this appearance was the dyadic form of chicken and egg.