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A Chunk of Matter is Better (Off) ?
Another thing about jealousy and envy: are you jealous because you want to be that person you are jealous of or are you jealous of the state that person finds itself in, aka because you know you can never be that person, or you assign that person’s state as something so very greatly better or higher (mysteriously better and higher and even if your logic says that this is not the case your emotion says it is, another unresolved (and never to be solved) internal conflict) ? Both and neither and anything in between.
And even if we would become or obtain that person or be that person or whatever, would we be satisfied (or would it last a while only to wear off and then find a new unobtainable target) ? No, maybe it would last forever and you would be ever more happy of your new acquired state, as that state becomes better and better forever! So then your jealousy was worthwhile, justified, go figure.
So yes, it is the second case, you will never be that other person (or have that other “special” person as in “love” ?) and your anger and envy and jealousy will increase forever, you have been assigned as a loser, you will lose, you lost, god wanted it that way, now beat yourself up, punish yourself, it is your fault, go man, go …
But logic says differently… and isn’t the entire affair defined and distinguished with logic (non contradiction and identity principles ?) you wouldn’t confuse the other person with yourself would you ? you wouldn’t make that logical mistake would you ? But then if logic says that there is nothing and no reason to be envious and jealous but your emotions, instincts and “Natural Reactions” say yes you must be, nay, are forced to be ever more envious and jealous (and all) especially of the other person’s pleasure and fun (and so you want the other person to deny their pleasure ? or merge with their pleasure ? or be the object of their attention and become their pleasure ?) which is right ? which to follow ? none and both: this is the contradiction of separate chunks of matter communicating between each other (and fooling each other into thinking that they have it better or are special ? they lie to each other ? and deceive each other ? just for fun ?) and having the necessity of being similar so as to control that one chunk doesn’t have it too good, but we just go back to square one and assign another chunk as having it so much better just to punish ourselves and generate guilt complexes: we want to be guilty always, we want guilt, guilty if we win, guilty if we lose (but not really, we should be happy the object of our envy and jealousy is enjoying and we are “allowing” that it enjoys without us, our non presence is fundamental in that item’s joy…), guilty in between, guilty for any interaction since it always could have “been different and better”, “it could have gone in another direction, if only”, there is always that “if only” this and that, as if there is another history and not only one history, the one inserted in your memory, the only gadget keeping score: but then erase and change your memory, it can be done, it is just a puny gadget, change your memory and it will become real and reality.
Wow, what a boatload of drivel, trype and self delusion…