Iāve had similar things happen to me. I refuse to remain isolated, though. I donāt think Iām really any happier for that choice, to be honest; it brings about its own set of problems and bullshit. Even in isolation, you bring pain to things you touch, but I donāt say that meanly. Itās just to say that I sympathize with you and wish I could take some of your pain, which I guess I just did. Still, though, I wouldnāt trade where I am now for any of where Iāve been and I wouldnāt trade it for isolation. I have thought about it, though. Iād like to take a couple years away from this purpose that drives me to try to live simply and without worrying about the world; just focus on myself, but I couldnāt even really do that when I needed to sit back and do that. Iām sorry for the way the world is. I know itās not my fault, but Iām still sorry.
I know some would question how your brothersā smile could fill you with joy after he did what he did to you, but I can understand. Iāve only ever wished the best for every person who has fucked me over. Sure, thereās been some anger involved and Iāve often ranted and raved in private where no one could really see; took some of that rage out on internet trolls and flamers that deserved it. But, at the end of it, I only ever hoped that some day they would āget itā and their life would be better for it.
I was actually in the process of opening up a bit here, but just deleted everything I typed. I donāt want to make this seem like a pissing match and you donāt need the weight of my problems or what Iāve been through. Something tells me youāve been through enough on your own that youāre not mentioning. Some times I doubt what I do and if itās even worth it and then Iām reminded of people like you; people like how I used to be. You give me hope for the future even though you donāt know it. You give me incentive to keep trying and to keep pushing forward even when all seems against me and I thank you for that. People like you are exactly what Iām fighting for.
If you as an individual decide that you wont compete, then youāve simultaneously decided to lose. Sorry man, you can quit the soccer team, and you can quit the job, but you canāt quit life and believe me, if you rest or if you are complacent then you will in fact live a lesser existence than those who choose to compete and can win.
Exactly. Nice try, Manchild. You tell me in another thread itās all about integrity and here in this thread itās about whoever has the stronger will. Would you make up your mind, you fucker?
Have you seen an overly competitive person nearly kill themselves to win something?
Some compete with others, some compete with only themselvesā¦ I do the latterā¦ infact, many people I know are the same and they are very successful in life.
I used to compete with others then I realized that I was way better than almost everyone, at almost everything so now I just continually raise my own standards to better myself. Itās like having to run a race to get better lap times because itās a no brainer that youāre going to win all the races that are just against other racers.
