Sometimes I just let my thoughts flow freely through my mind like smoke wafting through space
Other times my OCD will trigger angry thoughts [ or vice versa ] and I find it hard to let them go
But very slowly over time I have managed to reduce the intensity and frequency of such thoughts
I would like them to disappear completely but any improvement is helpful so should not complain
Sometimes I feel that I am in control while other times I feel that my mind is in control
So I do not think I always have control but I have learned the hard way to just let it be
I recently discovered that reading is rather like meditation in that it requires isolation and calm and focus
And even though I have been reading for most of my life I was never able to made that connection before
I feel mental connections like these opening up in my mind very naturally and spontaneously
While at the same time being freed from the mental shackles that bind me to this existence
Those videos look quite interesting so I shall watch them to see if any insight can be gained
But even if none can I will probably acquire knowledge that I did not already possess before