My experiences were more varied, biggy.
I did actually survived a major conflict -WW2 , in Hungary. ( as a baby) Then a revolution, then illegally crossing a border, then capture and imprisonment, into a ‘lager’ for what seemed like eternity, then almost death and a revival from LSD ingestion, then nearly dying on an almost crashing air force jet.
So , death and dying has always been a process by which I was always surrounded and involved in, the current pandemic notwithstanding.
We all have our battles, and my current ones appear the most radically profound, and enigmatic, lead ing me to the search for and.through gnosis.
The fear has.caused me to search : and to try to arrive at some logos , through which a catapault may enable a jump , a transcending jump into self realizing methods by which to access the intent that the supposed higher realm can re position the conflicting venues between background, and foreground, that may become the focus , rather then the object.
In some manner, the jump becomes the ultimate contrast between the inception and the extinction it’s self.
The more impersonal such sensation becomes , does not imply a corresponding caveat that the less personal situation necessarily should loose significance.
On the contrary, or even without using opposing forces as if the will has.to obey , in likeness to field mechanical , pre-transitional Newtonian laws. (Integrating them, rather then disqualifying them).
The battles within overwhelmingly overbear those that are without, in both sense.of the word.