He glanced through a vintage copy of "Anatomy of A Murder to seek some relevance, with an architecture of meaning as to poignency to motive. Just a stab in the dark, to seek balance to the developed myopia.
More likely scenario is Jersey K a anski’s Steps , or maybe in Painted Bird.
And the scene is similar in a horrific way.
A guy is having a haircut, and the barber notices his avoidance at glam ING at himself in the mirror AMD asks why.
His retort is that he is all too familiar with what he expects to find in the mirror.
Flashback to the time way before knowing, Violet or anyone really, the kid he was, theh left him inside alone, downstairs sought escape from the lonely alonness, a barbershop downstairs, they put him in a barber’s chairthinking him an abandoned child, he terror strucken, seeing no one just the Grey void.
Much like her greyish cigarette smoke smoke swirling up towards the greyish shades of enigma life would become for him, then lyrically dissipate into the unfathomable vignette sets his life would become.