Well I’ve seen things while on cocaine and I’ve had night terrors before; when you wake up paralyzed and horrified (fear like u have never known) and there’s this black writhing cloud the size of a basketball hovering across the room. Think of something out of The Ring or wait no think of Venom. THAT black thing, but not a figure… just a blob or pulsating mass. I was so terrified I shrieked like a leetle girl, bro. Silent Soliloquy knows, she wuz there. U remember her shirley.
Now. I would of course dismiss all this is either drug induced hallucination (in the case of the visuals while on coke… shadows and shit, the light plays differently… hard to explain), or half awake mental states, a peculiar level/kind of consciousness when most of your brain is still asleep. In the night terrors, I was awake, and aware of being awake… and as certain the black thing was there as I was aware of being awake.
But even supposing any of this was real and ‘paranormal’ or whatever, I can’t know what to make of it or anything about its importance, because it too, transcendental and supernatural as it might be, is rooted in dasein and conflicting goods in a political economy, however those shadows and black things do whatever they do (other than freaking me out).
Bro this one time I wuz smoking coke I cooked up myself in the woods and I wuz so sure some strange creatures were closing in on my perimeter that I literally pulled my knife out and started yelling out challenging them. I was parked on one of those public utility access roads that run under the main power lines, way away from any houses and shit. It was like something out of Predator, dude. I wuz like that Indian guy, but I didn’t cut a line across my chest. I wuz on coke, not meth.