I’d like to give an update on my views of nihilism for anyone who cares. Three months ago when I wrote the OP I was well aware of the circle that develops when one wishes to speak of the truth of no truth, but not as aware as I am now. Nothing I say will even come close to accurately expressing that truth, and then why should it being that that truth is self-defeating by nature.
I’d like to create a dichotomy that I’ll be using, but let me first remind people of the following saying; there are two types of people in the world, those that divide the world into two types of people and those who don’t. If the significance of that saying when applied to any given dichotomy is lost one anyone, first don’t feel bad, it was lost on me most of my life, second just ask if you want an explanation.
The dichotomy is speech (written as well) and acts (that is any act other than speaking). So I claimed to be a nihilist for the most part back in the OP. That was my claim, but if anyone had known me in person they would know my acts hardly spoke as one who was even close to being a true nihilist. Now I won’t worry about giving myself the label ‘nihilist’. Still one will find that I’m very pro-nihilism in my speech, after all I wouldn’t be continuing this thread if I wasn’t. I’d like to explore using that dichotomy how pro-nihilism I really am.
Now one will find me on occasion in other threads mentioning the ambiguity of various situations, but I avoid that for the most part being that mentioning such ambiguity often sounds like I’m just simply saying, “it doesn’t matter”, over and over again to every subject that presents itself. So I take positions, but always with the underlining idea that it doesn’t matter and that my position is no more right or wrong than anyone else’s.
So that would make it seem as if I was very much pro-nihilist, but it may be misleading. I often feel strongly about the issues I speak of. Feel, is the key word here, I don’t usually share my opinions on controversial matters without feeling some degree of emotion, obviously then I care, whether I admit it or not.
And as I said my actions in person or offline hardly speak of one who is a true nihilist. I certainly look after myself and know what I want in many regards and work towards that. In fact it is very hard for me to see where I would be a nihilist in any regard of the ‘act’ half of the dichotomy at all.
So what would make me pro-nihilism (rather than one who simply has the ephemeral disposition to call myself that and to say things such as “I don’t care”) is not so much based on what I say or what I do, but who I am, that is where I see myself as a person based on my past experiences and thoughts. I’ve explored absurdity through much reflection and study and I’ve lived some degree of absurdity. So I can say that everything is absurd, ambiguous and underliningly meaningless with a conviction that comes from dual causes, study and experience or logic and feeling.
In other words, no matter how strongly I agree with the logic of a statement, theory, etc. I agree with the logic of absurdity even more so. So no matter how convinced I may be about the logic of certain ideas I would never fail to admit when pressed that even those ideas are absurd and underliningly meaningless. For example, in my OP I spoke much of Sartre. I am still very impressed by his ideas, but I would hardly say that Sartre’s philosophy is any more true, logical, meaningful or useful than any other philosophy when it comes right down to it.
And the same goes for emotion, but not to the same extent as reason or logic. I think that is to be expected since I have spent more time thinking so many supposed logical statements into obscurity or absurdity than I have spent living an absurd life. As well as impressed by Sartre’s logic I am also excited about his ideas. Most people don’t seem to be excited as well and usually lose interest when I speak of him. If I found someone who truly wanted me to discuss Sartre’s philosophy with them, I would be happy about that. I am even more emotional when someone challenges Sartre’s ideas.
So let’s say I was in an argument with someone who knew Sartre’s work very well, but thought it completely worthless. Let’s say after much struggle I was starting to win the argument, that is convince the person of Sartre’s worth, then someone jumped into the discussion and mentioned that I was pro-nihilism and therefore I believed that everything and every philosophy is ultimately absurd. Perhaps one may think I would resent such an interjection and negate it so as to win the argument, but that isn’t true. As impressed and excited as I am about Sartre’s work, it is not to the same degree as my esteem for nihilism. I would readily agree that Sartre is indeed truly absurd and meaningless. Perhaps I would try to qualify that by mentioning that he’s certainly no more absurd than any other philosopher, but that would hardly save my argument.
So in conclusion, one may ask what the use of all the above is or what do I hope to accomplish. I certainly would like to persuade people to my way of thinking (who wouldn’t?), but there is more to it than that. So much of what I feel strongly about is based on the misapplication of concepts of truth and facts, or the close mindedness of certain views, the views who’s close-mindedness bothers me the most often being the supposed open minded views that contradicted the traditionally held closed minded views.
I like to say that I like to be honest or non hypocritical, but obviously I fail in both just making such a statement. There is no truth and therefore there is no honesty (or dishonesty). But, still perhaps one can at least tentatively look past the paradoxical nature of that. I believe the truth of no truth is the best truth and when one is expressing that they are being as honest as possible. One shouldn’t have to qualify everything they say such as, “It’s true that I’m tired”, with a statement such as, “That is if anything was true”, but, the idea should always be dwelling beneath the surface.
Now I gave a bad example in that I have no interest in denying that those who are tired are in fact tired and it is a fairly mundane topic anyway. But, there are so many other issues that those here may agree are very important and yet very complex, that is with it’s ambiguity being very apparent. So if one wants to make progress while discussing such subjects one perhaps should first admit to it’s complete and utter ambiguity and then realize that everywhere we go from there is just about one’s disposition. We might then find that the subjects that are most meaningful to us can actually be worked on much more effectively with that taken as a given.