You know that online booze vendors wont even ship to Alabama? It’s just wrong.
How long were you with her? What made you like her so much? It seems, maybe just a little that you still have some romantic inclination towards her? Sorry to ask personal questions but as a fake psychiatrist I’m sure that sharing your raw experiences with a bunch of online strangers will be a liberating experience!
Naahhhh, I’m more in love with myself. A lot of who I am was formed during my time with her, so she is inescapably a part of my identity. Not in a romantic way or anything, her presence is more incidental. Her having a child represents a rather dramatic break from that time, which is understandably something of a shock to my system. That’s all. It’s a strange feeling. A juxtaposition that leads one to wonder: what the hell happened.
Then you’d have to ask yourself why her having a child is more of a juxtaposition than any other random event that differentiates her from you.
Well, it is worth pointing out that how time relates to internet forum posts is strange. I certainly did feel that way when I first heard about the birth and it was indeed strange. Still is, in some ways. But one gets used to these things and it isn’t as big a deal. I suppose the reason why it stands out is because I lost contact with this particular person for a time. It’s the old “frog in a pot” scenario. Throw a frog in hot water and it will jump out, but slowly raise the temperature and the frog will be cooked alive. I should check snopes to see if that is true, but the adage remains. It was all the stranger because I didn’t see the intermediary stages so I couldn’t adjust to them as I have in other areas.
Plus having a kid is a big deal for anybody. There are few experiences as dramatically life-altering so it makes sense given the scale of it that it would loom larger in my mind as well.