Borderlines personality disorder

Not so that it would have any effects on our lives. Perhaps yours, but not anyone else’s including the prostitute’s. Or you wouldn’t have to keep telling people you can do these things.

To truly understand me is to understand I’m trying to not exist.

That’s a massive undertaking.

In the case I can’ unexist, I need to build a new dimension.

I’m doing both jobs simultaneously.

Both of which are massive undertakings.

If I snapped my fingers and made no violence anymore. People would keep calling me back as their beloved god. If I offend anyone… people will keep calling me back to offend me.

That’s why it’s so hard to unexist.

Aside from what I just wrote above. I tell you how things work and then I tell you it’s your choice whether to use it or not.

I’m not trying to save the planet. The mechanism will kill it. It’s already done. You’re just statistics to me.

And after those two posts. Even anyone sees a theme throughout my whole life story.

The thread that runs through it all.

I just want to die.

It’s really hard to die.

That’s how it feels and seems.
And yet, you seem to want the attention of these statistics.
That seems like theft, because statistics cannot give you their attention or notice you.

I’ll add to that too. My truest family is the eternally dead. I can feel their souls even though they have no thoughts. You’re not my family. It takes no intelligence to live. It takes perfection to die.

Greenfuse.

One of the conditions of leaving is that you have to teach. Teach and protect. That’s how you get out of here.

I’ve already been eternally dead before. That’s my family. Everything you need to know is right in front of you.

It seems to me that you want to avoid being “loved” for meeting people’s standards and “hated” (considered offensive) by people who don’t meet your standards. You don’t want to feel the pressure of letting people down or of them letting you down — expectations. On one hand, faith (music) without works (dancing) is dead — on the other hand, the works (dancing) results from the faith/trust that we are loved (music) despite them, good or bad.

If you can’t (or can?) escape disappointing expectations, you want to stay in your own mental dimension (since you can’t return to expectation-free oblivion) where (nonsentient) people DO meet your standards. But do they, really, satisfy those or any other standards?

When you call people nonsentient… are you framing them as if you/they are already in your new dimension… and they just don’t know it? Or are you just giving them the benefit of the doubt? (Forgive them… they don’t know what they’re doing.)

All of this seems like you’re rewording your interpretation of stuff Jesus said, and if I argue against you, you take that as me arguing against Jesus. Or you’re assessing denominational affiliation. Or something similar/opposite.

Like… if you don’t believe what I tell you about how things happen in nature/world, why would you believe what I tell you about how things happen in the kingdom (supernature)? If you believed me, you would build that kingdom with me. Etc. You’re just rephrasing and building your position around Jesus’. He said what we do/don’t do to others, we do/don’t to him. Meaning we are all in the image of God… he does not consider anyone more/less worthy of consent recognition. Recognition… sentience… related?

I can understand you because … probably everyone can.

It’s fine with me if he’s not normal, but yes, the part of normal - at least one would hope it’s the norm, I’m not sure - where one can make eye contact - here metaphorically - with others, recognize their humanity, precisely not treat them like statistics - which he says above is how he views us - and actually respond to what they say here, yes, that would be pleasant.

It’s a kind of typical pattern where someone wants attention from others, but doesn’t view the others as real. The hypocrisy and confusion in that runs deep. And while I would guess deep suffering has led to this state, pretending it’s ok is not ok.

There’s a need to get from the humanity here, while denying their humanity at the same time.

That’s theft.

Humans teach humans. Life forms teach life forms. You can’t teach statistics.
You want and get attention because it is human attention, but you can neither learn from us, so far, it seems, nor acknowledge that we are not statistics or tools in your project but humans, even though it is precisely the fact that we are human that brings you here to proclaim things.

And also, no, I do not accept the premise of your what it takes to get out of here.

Consider that these ‘solutions’ are not real.

Presumably you know these things you proclaim here. And yet you view others here as statistics. That’s not appealing and you don’t seem to be doing well at all.

It’s more complicated than that. I’m using reverse psychology on you, hoping that you have oppositional defiant disorder.

I’m telling you the pattern so you have the choice of not being a statistic.

People don’t really understand my spirit even though I lay it bare.

Most strangely enough people can’t understand a spirit laid bare.

If that’s true, you probably shouldn’t have let us know. IOW if that’s a good way to deal with people, manipulatively, then you shouldn’t stop. If however you can actually tell us what you are doing, which you say you just did, that’s a better place to start. Human to human, respect, honest. Hello human.

On the one hand you say it is more complicated. On the other hand you say you are laying it bare.

Those are kind of …like …contradictions …don’t you think?

To teach vast minds. Which you have. You have to have a vast mind.

I’m giving you the tools to be free.

Well, you could stop with all the sloppy diagnosing.
Not wanting to be treated like a statistic does not an oppositional defiant disorder make.

I understand you’re upset by me. Every person on earth has every psychological disorder.

They need to know that to not have one.

It’s your choice. Not mine.

Maybe they just need to act in a way that respects the consents of everyone involved?

You don’t understand me. You keep treating people as things. You still haven’t even remotely tried to meet me. The whole nothing new under the sun, I know it all, no one has anything to teach me, I don’t have to take anything you say seriously, is dehumanizing, if any of us actually believed it. And it’s not helping you, thinking you know in advance anything that happens.

Yes, though at a very base level.
E: I can treat you as not real.
Others: No.

The tricky issue is whether he really wants to treat others as unreal. If he does, given that he is so easy to avoid, as are we all here, it’s likely a time will come to not engage with him.