In a round-a-bout way, I think so, pocky.
But then I imagine being permanent, and still I become bored. Strange.
I’m reading Kierkegaard right now, and as always, his penetrating insight holds me spellbound.
He says that boredom exists in what he calls the “aesthetical sphere,” and that it is actually a manifestation of despair.
Here is an exert from the book:
“Aesthetes never achieve a truly human form of existence, because they are guided by the same principles that motivate amoebas and slugs. Pleasure and pain are, after all, fundamentally biological in nature. It is true that the more refined is the pleasure, the more “spiritual” it seems to become, but this spirituality is an illusion. The evolution of the aesthete from crassness to sophistication is based on the realization that pleasure must be transformed into a form of consciousness rather than remain mere physcial titillation. The sophisticated aesthete realizes that the pursuit of pleasure itself becomes boring, but he tries to solve this problem from within the aesthetic sphere. He does so by creating a world of exotic bohemian sensuality of the spirit. The aesthete does not yet recognize that boredom is actually a manifestation of despair.”
If I start with nothing, would it be possible for me to feel bored, pocky?
If I start with one thing, I can become bored in three ways:
- Bored from the anticipation of the possibility of losing it inevitably.
- Bored from the predictability and tolerance I have for the thing. I become used to it.
- Bored from the fact that I cannot fight to keep it. I don’t cherish it anymore.
Kierkegaard says that the aesthete “rotates his pleasures” to create the illusion that one of them is “new again.”
“You go to see the middle of a play, you read the third part of a book. You remain outside of life, a spectator and a manipulator. This way you will rescue freedom from necessity and fill your life with cunning little suprises that, with good luck, will keep you from being swamped by life’s tedium.”
Now watch. The rotation method becomes frenzied. The aesthete, sweating and anxious, despairs more. He is coming closer to suicide.
But why is he bored in the first place?
Because he has something to do.
Boredom is being grounded in the world.