Some time ago I was in a coffee when a very beautiful woman showed up, and I directly had the urge to have sex with her. She pulled a chair in the table next to me and there she had a seat. Five minutes later she asked me for a lighter. We started talking then, we kept talking for 20 minutes and then I had to leave. She gave me her mobile number and asked me to call her later. On my way back home I was thinking how nice and innocent she really seemed to me to the extent that when I reached my place, I forgot all about the sex.
Three days later I called her and we set a date for the next day. The next day as we were sitting in a pub she asked me if I have a girlfriend, I said no, she then told me about this guy she loves who doesn’t love her back. Befor going into details she suddenly started kissing and touching me, she asked me “Don’t you feel horny?” I did not answer her, because I did not want to hurt her by saying “no”, pretty much of ironic, eh?
I was hurt, I wanted to stand up and leave, but something inside of me wanted me to stay and appear as if I am enjoying my time with her. Luckily few minutes later her mother called, and she had to leave.
That night I came up with two possibilities:
1-She found me attractive and all she is looking for is to get laid.
2-I have something common to the one she loves, and she wanted to make herself believe it’s him who she is actually kissing.
Although both of the possibilities pissed me up, I still wanted to see her, because I felt she needs help.
Two days later we met again, I told her of how I felt since the moment I first saw her till the moment her mother called. Of course I did not mention the two possibilities I came up with. I told her that I wanted to get to know her and how I was shocked of her going too fast. She told me that all she is looking for is a sex relation and that’s what she was thinking of when she gave me her mobile number.
Despite the fact that we both were pissed after that little talk, non of us left, we just silently continued having our drink. Almost an hour later, I told her that I need to go out get fresh air and have coffee in another place, just for being nice I asked her if she wants to join me, to my surprise she said yes. We spent that night together kidding and laughing at jokes that aren’t even funny.
In the date that followed, she admited to me that she’s had sex with 97 different guys, and that she became a slave to that desire.
I like this girl alot, I am having very hard time not to have sex with her, not because I need the sex, but because -although I explained to her why it is bad to be enslaved to such a habit and she agreed not also that it is bad but also to get rid of it and try to find the beauty of two persons getting to know each other befor reaching the sex part- she is always pushing it, not because she doesnt agree with me anymore, she just can’t help it…;(
I could have sex with her, but I don’t think it’s a moral thing to do, I know this woman needs help. Do you think I am doing the right thing? Do you have any suggestions?