Hermetic odes for those who died alone

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Scetchbook
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The story will be as short or as long as space or time permits and , or a combination of , and depends on muse and musical inspiration.

It begins with questions of guilt, truth, revelation- both biblical and less so personal, the intimation could allegedly recall the protection that the Fifth Amendment can work as a kind of sheltering sky, that also recalls various ghostly and vampiric figures underneath.

Sketch 1

Told Carleanis this long ago in a different place and time about the Persian Boy, the fictional one, the tragic lonely hunter of hearts who was cute as a red plum cherub, causing the death of many a soul in Venice.

That is not the Venice we associate with spiraling evil behemoth wicked popes, like Joan, who was really a drag queen with unholy aspirations and Medici alliances, but simply Venice California, a wannabe look alike with strand, colorful beach balls, Jersey Mike subs and New York pizzas and dogs.

Here is where the real Persian boy lived, he still does, but his wife, poor soul has gone into the vivid neon blue sky of eternity, that previously was though was left peaceful and undisturbed.

That all has changed, and the death in Venice was not the resultant of the arte noir, of som cut off German failed idealistic still- life, of Arab boys seductively lounging in archaic proto classical poses, preemptions of coming pornographic with aristocratic ally slanted taste and elegance, but harsh , real brazen post avant- guard images that dripped out of melted time cut off diamonds in the once was trees, buried in the vampiric caves meant forever.

No. This was real. and the Persian boy out of jeolousy, as this ‘gift’ to Carleanis, may not equal the value that Salome dished up as a present, however the goings on in the faux postmodern sense can imply more then what presently could be described.

WARNING: this is a sketch, and nothing else, meant not for distribution or any other purpose but to do what the late Henry Miller warned about;

If you had to decide between being a writer and a driver, GO, on the road like Kenw K and enjoys the thrills and frills, don’t waste your time with shedding a lot of Blood, Sweat and Tears.

If anyone seeking a direction here, it would suffice by saying that only the mysterious will of Mantras and in the way God acts, could strength and Absolute knowledge be found to erase the template ‘drug, sex and rock and roll from any other, as no corresponding spiritual power could not but diminish it’s kundalini energy.

The director has to find the author to find 6 characters in a hurry to make sense of it.

THE PRESENT

The Persian boy grew up, he lost his innoscence, and this was no longer the time when two Spartan Soldiers would pour their cut arteries’ blood into a vessel and swear never to abandon each other: he became whom he was not intended to be, he became other the the one he mistook as he stared at the other as he himself appeared to be, no, echo became jealous, filled with vanity and later the power of deception.

It could be nice to echo the original sound coming out of hibernation, or before time was recorded, but then a modernist noted that one can not go home again , living so long in the city, overabundant with noise and chaos, to the virginal time when the number of horses used to carry folk into towns and prairies, forgotten landscapes, wilting flower petals reflected from lacquered tabletops reflecting the candles eyes strained to write anything meaningful , notes from underground, as generations gyrated through it’s enormous astounding leaps of regeneration.

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SKETCH 2

Abracadabra rising

The boy grows up, is jealous because he loaded up his addicted wife with phentanyl.
Court appearances, depositions, later, the DA would not prosecute the case because intent could not be proved beyond reason, and the jails were so crowded in jail, that sub human conditions found prisoners sleeping on bare cement, only covering themselves with supplied scant washed out pieces of raggish looking material once thought as blankets.

The days were gone when the homeless would deliberately have themselves arrested to gain food and shelter, even those whom it wasn’t just addiction and joblessness drove them to the street.

No his time would come and some of the legal challenges were described to Carolina’s, not to Ishtirre, though, in order to spare his sensitive .almost baroque indearance.

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Sketch 3 (gotta write )this,

Now as the story goes with the Fitzgeralds.
He was a great Gatsby, and wife, diminished, tried her hand at ballet, in Paris, as they were the toast of the town during the roaring twenties, she was demure, a sensitive child in the southern belle tradition, and factory clearly took advantage to that situation and as soon as she was beginning to get noticed, he promptly took credit and so it goes, she preceded him in death when the ‘sanatorium’ that constrained her burned down, while he passed quickly at the Pentages Theatre in Hollywood, a fabulous palace de’arte fit to the dimensions great gatsby .

This scene is not cut, but subtitled with something in gatsby that he aspired to, which revives memories to things like blood diamonds, sacrafice, victims,silver , and even Wagner’s operas. In particular.

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In one scene a diamond as big as a sqare black plays a role, which makes me fond of the little brilliance breaking unto continuous fire play, an impression late at night only fire flies in a Van Gogh caffe can come near to imitate.

I wish I could have confessed to Ishturre and carleina ( she coyly keeps changing her name until unwary corrected) the depths which drive Sophia Asa Sybil near madness, but that is not one that so casually dismissed, as if to this magic of recollection a slight sleight of hand could wave .

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Scene4

the little boy, of whom Ferlinghetti wrote his last self admonition, grows up and is standing in court, to plead .

The call Sophy asa Shirley, Sharon, and ask her if she agrees to bargain with him. Her husband assents and that’s that, as good and done with as can be.

But wait a sec. There is something intangible here. Must admit. What does a present consist of? A proof beyond what’s reasonable? Who is reasonable here, and is not reason in itself suspect to manipulation?

Well the only well imprinted template which still stands as if carved out of rock, is that if there was no reason to reason and form an ordered state of mind, then there could not the thought be generated to seek direction, a probable drawn map to get to a near improbable but beneficial object.

So backtrack, let’s some.

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SCENE 5

To the time before, abracadabra ( in which context later be elucidated or why being a philosopher is not art) but then that’s further down the line.

We met at Lake Balboa about 10 miles down from where the little-now big boy lived in the same block on a hill overlooking mostly smog, one a week always Sundays at 10 am, where the Persian big boy now, his sister selenta and the little Persian boy met.

Putting arm around big one, the dad, for the sake of the little one, feeling kinda loving for both, so thinking, because even before pulling a 45 on me as attractions which still may come; he confesses:

“You know, I think I like you better than my own dad, acbar. So ok, let that go, but it was too soon because a few months later he pulls gun, no holster, as a warning to confirm his confidence.

The visitations continued, as his arrest became imminent, and the endearing gestures continued.
The DA let the case go, the Persians were unaware, including father “Godfather” .

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SCENE6

Paranoia - “not if it’s true”

These characterizations are most probably going to be protected by copyright.

Rationale: No one is going to believe the ravings of rejections in and out of the garbage can- gestalt , Fritz) fills this later:

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SCENE7

The department of child services, after long wrangling, awards little Persian tike to BiG Bro’s sister, and the word is she raised BIG BRO as well as going to raise lil boy as well.

OK, every visitation is heart renching, and it goes on and on until the time comes when BIG BRI is arrested really, by the DEA, FBI stakes out the house across the street where the auctioned is clearly visible , about a dozen heavily armed men, hold him, a feeling of a melange of bittersweet memories toward him , they were only freshman, when they started dating, who could foresee such

So the plea is bargained, and they take him the feds to several penitentiary places, further and further from his domicile. With good behavior out in 5 with a year taken off for time served in what they call the glass house.

Sadly his last look almost made tears well, don’t know reason, as the little boy and BIG BRO compellingly are juxtapositions.

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SCENE8
Just occurred SCENE=SKETCH - only a sketch -

CUT ( for lateness of the day- fadeout)

Strictly verite - this scene can have someone/anyone read all lines:

Early am continue

Echoing sang or read with lesser and lesser forte

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The little boy begs me not to take him seriously for goodness sake father do not forgot about me
I will never do it again

Promise

Please…
Don’t abandon me- again.

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You abandoned him? Why?

The Father did not.

He was right where little boy left him.

Not that I know what you are talking about.

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Hate to disillusion myself but my own father , abandoned me after he led me to believe I abandoned him, but I was a child, , what does he know?

But that is not me, that was him.

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How did he lead you to believe you abandoned him? How did he abandon you?

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Yes, it’s early a.m. here gotta take care of the chores, then between them promised not to end here,

Shall have some time considerable

Meanwhile remembered something said last night about I when an other double cross lifted higher thr dubious nature of reducing a false premise, through concerted effort to deceive; again through fear of revelation, both personal and Divine.

Of the hiddenness, the deliberate cover of what was said

Ishthus, before getting on / taking off, warming up car etc, the plot thickens here, and this is nowhere in the middle, some very bound up features must reveal further relevance, and if anyone reading( looking wistfully doubtful) - too early perhaps.

So far , and remembering the note passed back when?

by u

That such double trouble as between two as two threes, Shirley and I, may be too much of an effrontery , a badly pleaded bargain of assuming over the top, he she’ll dilute and delimit the pressure so that to avoid the nasty effects of too sudden a decompression.

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So without further ado, and in notice of skipping ahead by deliberate blanking out of this here page, well knowing that such left gaps will remark any downward slippery slope slide to the detriment to those seeking precedents: me know included for exceptions may not rule in this very instance:

A return to normal convention is called for as the plot thickens and the world turns.

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Sketch9(scene1) is this to be a play, a narrative poem or strictly a documentation ?
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As the curtain raises, again three figures can be seen huddling around the breakfast table, quizzically stealing looks of each other, as intermittently observing the wider circles seated about and in proximity to them, as if to set the tone of the day’s menus to be had.

So for that , such stealth is really at once an adverse and a risky maneuver, for here, familiarization could be the resultant between various tableaus of possible arrangements between the familiarity of family dynamics. Which is which, who is who , or even what’s what become intangible knots in order to unwind those , who seem to be disengaged from either, or appear to overplay their roles of etiquette, by becoming centerpieces, compensating some needed for flowers to distract from the emptiness there.

However this is no place for a blue plate special, it’s merely a by pretty ordinary diner, and that fact alone produces some vacuous desire to fill that with something ornate, as a reminder that once outside this closed room, the tasks of the day will fill the emptiness with the requisite chaos that the duties of work can augment.

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He spent his life watching any movie

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https://youtu.be/_1anC09Jmms.

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Our regular broad cast will resume after intermission

Stay tuned

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Abracadabra

Back to reality

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