I'm going to have a mental breakdown.

I literally cannot stop my thoughts from flowing and giving me huge waves of anxiety. What should I do?

Take some Paxil (ADD medication?), other drugs, or whatever?

Don’t take medication. Do nothing. Just feel whatever you feel.
If it’s too much, cry or laugh. Suffer and get used to it.

Don’t try to control, but rather try to see the spectrum of the sensation you feel as the anxiety or “negative”.
You will be able to locate where you feel it in you physical body, how you feel it, unless you are controlled/driven by it.

If you are sensitive/aware enough, you will be able to see the moment your “self” try to turn away from “negatives”.
It’s exactly like what you may feel when you advance two magnets and they try to move away.

You will be thrown away and come back to the same sensation, and see that it cannot last forever unchanged.
Sometime it takes long long suffering time to see the changes, though …

Basically, anxiety is a good sign, as well as any negative feeling/sensation. It’s your chance/opportunity.
Normal people turn away from them, automatically/robotically, but by staying with them, without reacting to them, we can see them resolve.

you can stop your thoughts if you really want to by meditating. You dont need to believe anything to do it. Just focus on the breath, as it goes in, and as it goes out, and when ever you thoughts stray, bring it back to the breathing. Its okay if your thoughts stray, just be aware that they strayed, and the breathing focus should allow your mind to experience a nothing-type space, which is cooling like the flame of a candle being extinguished. Good luck.

It’s a pain in the ass, metaphorically speaking of course, when it takes a severe amount of strength to hold your mental concentration onto anything long enough to calm you down when your mind runs a bazillion miles an hour…

Somebody give me the “blue pill”–I want back inside the matrix…

(Joking of course.)

I’ll figure something out, thanks.

Don’t “touch” it. Let it run, but keep seeing what’s happening.
Don’t interpret, if you can avoid. Just keep seeing as if you are watching a movie.

The key is coming back to the observing position when you get entangled in the thought stream or sensations.

It’s corny, but time heals all wounds. Just wait it out, it’ll pass. (Which of course is the positive spin on the fact that there’s no quick fix, at least not in my experience.)

You created this for yourself then didnt you,you sowed,now you must reap

do you have a creative output? writing or painting? …maybe shrug

…or tv! numb your brain for a few hours.

let it flow

That would probably kill me. My gravitation is towards nothingness–my mind literally tries to negate my “self” with my thoughts.

It lets me see reasons clearly, but I guarantee you, it is almost always not a fun experience seeing everything in advance.

I need to go do some frivolous, social things. Maybe I should go join some church and sleep with all the Christian girls… :-s

#-o

Thanks for the advice people. Raw thinking is painful for me and quite clearly there are other “philosophers” in my same position.

Actually just letting it flow is very healthy, just do not let your mind take over your body, keep your body restricted to one place. Surely you can do that? It is difficult but not that hard. If you doubt your ability to control your body and yet let your mind flow then, Can you place absolute trust in anyone or near absolute trust? If you can, get someone to lock your body in one place, until you are rational again. It works, just return the favor one day.

I realized recently that I’m not taking enough care of my physical self. My mind has been going unrestrained.

I need to take better [care] of my [self]… :imp:

I think I know the mechanism of your though addiction problem.
But unfortunately, I don’t think you will be able to really fix it.

In short, I see your uncontrolled thought to be a form of addiction, a habit triggered by escapism, subconscious automatic reaction to certain sensation/feeling.
The anxiety you wrote might be the feeling triggering your though, but there might be more than that.
It should have started at very young age before you get more or less conscious about your “self”.

I said you won’t be able to fix it, because you would have hard time seeing the possibility of my theory to be true, and even if you can consider my view as plausible and decide to resolve the root sensation by feeling it, you aren’t used to digest these sensation.

The fact that you still feel anxiety even though you are thinking a lot means you are getting closer to the point thinking doesn’t work as escapism mechanism, a sort of drug/anesthetics, any more.
So, you have to either use something else to escape, or go into clinical insanity (and come back to somewhat normal consciousness occasionally to notice the miserable state of your self …), or face your death … the physical death or the death of some of your mind.

But you may fall in love with a girl … or possibly with an older guy like Satyr, and suddenly you may forget everything and even your “philosophy” you once cherished. :smiley: :smiley: :smiley:
Sorry, I’m a very positively negative person that I mange to find “brighter entertaining side” in anything. :slight_smile:

Try some hunting or some great outdoors activity.

( It helps me out.)