Insomniacs Unite!

It is 2:34am in my time zone.

I think the vast majority of the time I’m on here is really late at night because I frequently notice that I am the only member logged on, or there might be one or two people coming in and out through the night.

But the members are located worldwide so I mean why aren’t some people in some other place posting right now like it’s the middle of the day and they’re awake?

How can the entire site have the same bed time in different time zones? What are all of you guys usually doing between 1:30-5:00am central standard time?

I’m all over the clock here with my posts, but I also realize that it is dead here during the times you mentioned. Maybe it’s a cultural thing, after all in most places in America you can find fast-food and pharmacies open at all times, in Europe that’s usually not the case, they not only close early but they have a two hour lunch break in which they close. So that translates into a general propensity to do and not to do certain things at certain times, which I guess includes posting.

Reading. Or stuff I shouldn’t mention.

My first Sargent and I were both Insomniacs, and we would catch one another in our offices from time to time when I worked my stint in the supply room, I built a workbench and had model planes and helicopters I was hooking cameras to back before it was popular to do that. I had a better excuse given my ‘lab’ was a floor below where I lived, his ass was married, and he had a home.

I found being a hobo made my sleeping time at best 1200AM to 530. Shit goes away a few months after getting settled under a roof. I have to use automotive fluorescent lights, blue LED lights, or rest lamps facing the wall, keeping the place in near complete darkness if I am to fall asleep before dawn.

I also get more random- studied seven different very random things tonight, from psychology to the French and Indian War.

But sometimes this insomnia ends, and instead I’m trapped in Obsessive Compulsive Lucid Dreams for weeks at a time working the same problems I’ve worked on during the day at night, then again the next day. Takes a toll.

Sometimes in Hawaii I would climb a cliff system north of Waimanelo, breaking off the trail to climb up roots on cliffs to get a better view of the sunrise. Rained on me once when I was waiting on top this steep ridge, and had no realistic shelter. The romance died.

I also used to go on multi day Walk-Runs, up to 70 Miles, from age 14 -20. I would hit a gas station at midnight, but a gallon of tea, drink half of it causing deep intestinal pain, and head back down infinite, dark roads… I hallucinated once when near a guard rail the Sand Man appeared and blew dust into my face, and nearly fell backwards into a ravine. I ended up crawling into a bunch of thickets in a near by hill overlooking the road, and slept a hour until it had this rain- slurry hit me. My body was wet, but vapor/steam was always rising from me.

I’m starting to get more confidence in my legs to the point of slow trotting again, been working on recovering physically the last few years, I’m hoping to get into long endurance, ultra marathoning, where you run 30+ miles a night and then work the next day.

Just when I hit my sleep cycles, I sleep 10-12 hours… but in insomniac cycle, very little for very long stretches… don’t know how well I can adapt to ultra marathons when I am in sleep cycles.

I spent a year in college, went when I was 17… bored the fuck out of me. Literally out in the middle of nowhere in someplace called Glimer County, Glenville, West Virginia… surrounded by nothing. I used to go out at night and run 7 miles to a state park… in West Virginia, the tree leaves become extra crunchy and knee deep everywhere, like god raked all the leaves in the world here in one big pile. Deer, like 20 or so, would become scared as fuck as I jogged, snorting and running in unison around me, to stupid to run at a 90 degree angle. Was scary and noisy as fuck. I’d hit this creek on a stream, then head back.

Sometimes if I’m up too late Ill get musical war syndrome going on too, tells me I’m about to loose consciousness from extreme exhaustion, only time it ever kicks in.

I also in San Francisco had a Japanese Roommate, 40 year old art student, used to sit up drinking tea and talking when she would come in, Ild be sitting there legs over the armchair reading whatever in the dark, some song on infinite repeat. Mika, cute girl, Japs age well.

Used to sneak around the steel mill sometimes as a kid at night too, watch them poor molten slag into a pit, watch them go and throw newspaper on the flow to see if it burst into flames, and when it seemed safe run to the wall of the slide, breaking volcanic glass as it was still hot and malleable to a degree off it… came in dagger like blue, black and red swirls. Once the newspaper caught fire after I was already on it, and found my tredding on my sneakers was gone. They couldn’t see me hiding at night, so it was the best time to do it.

I also used to swim at night sometimes down by diamond head in Hawaii at night if I had the day off the next day. In Alaska I used to take off camping, tried hammocks (bad idea) then tents (permafrost + solar blankets stupid idea, still got picks of that). I got used to long walks in Artic Valley and down in Eagle River heading to the nature facility at the end of eagle river and heading back. Big sky, stars, northern lights, moose, mountains. One man alone in nature. It sucked. Cock was always cold.

Other times I would have none stop sex marathons with my girlfriend in some hotel back then, she was always bitching about honors and finals, etc and how she needed to study, but I just got more aroused when she complained like that. Didn’t really help anything on here end to complain like that.

I also used to hang out a lot before sunrise in crissy field by the Golden Gate Bridge by the walk on the shore, and watch the sun come up on the waves… went from pure night lite up from the bridge to a murky foggy grew, slowly peeling back over two hours to sun. Would hit Ihops down the road to read and eat. Fuck… I miss Ihops. Would stay up half the night there writing and reading. Steak and red potatoes, the F Train Rolling by occasionally.

Also, once I got back into physically good enough shape used to circumnavigate San Francisco County with a ruck.

This place sucks, I’m bored. Just fuck.

Also would get the night shift guards a lot in Iraq, would sneak down into off limit bunkers on our base in Iskandariya. First time, very early on in the war, I got stuck in this weird ass verticals maze going up and down these verticals staircases, and found all thus machinery and collapsed elevator shafts and exit signs lit up in English. I went to the top of one of the staircases and it was a deadens, door locked, and heard someone whispering in Arabic below… scared the shit out of me cause he wasn’t moving, just waiting there. Like, 20 minutes later I came creeping down and was all stealth, could hear someone breathing behind the corner, and was scared shitless, and he just came about, empty handed, in a greasy mechanics uniform, stook his hand out and said hello. I tried keeping my cool, remembering I had a gun, made some bullshit to check his ID (Iraqi Security Guard… which my commanders never knew existed, refused to believe still operated in the power plant our base was built around, and eventually even arrested… caused me to yell at the CSM and Lt. Cols as morons as the poor guy nearly got sent to prison for doing his job… but that was much later down the road).

That damn night scared the shit out of me, and heard the story I told my buddy repeated and embellushed a lot, but no one knew it was me. I also used to catalog refugees living in the base, average 200 a night sleeping under bushes.

For a while, we also built a scrapmetal fort in the scrapyard in Iraq, pictured here:

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We had found this old rotten guard tower, and put it standing up, and put scrap metal around it. We actually got to officially man it one night, but then the Sargent major found out we built that shit and had it torn down, which pissed us off but was understandable. Nearly got bit by a desert viper in that junkyard, but that was during the day.

Oh yeah, sometimes in Glenville, I would ride my bike down to Weston, where the worlds largest sandstone structure was (so they say), a large lunatic asylum abandoned. Used to break in and explore that place, a hobo lived inside, saw his gear but not him, but heard him down the hall walking once, was torn between it being a human or a ghost until he pissed on the wall.

Just random shit at night.

These are pictures of another bunker near the bunker I was mentioning above I used to sneak into at night, the ones in these pictures, the musiyibb chemical weapons bunker, was where Saddam manufactured WMD, the bunker complex I played in aided that operation. Half the power from the Musiyibb Powerplant in Iraq was hard wired (two large industrial electrical towers, half the electrical output in the whole plant) went to chemical and nuclear production.
iraqwatch.org/entities/images/musayyib.htm

The bunker complexes were similar, just mine routed more main operations of the plant. Some of the machinery in the junk yard and underground bunker looked like the mustard gas equipment found at al muthanna, just disassembled and junked, half rusted and random.

The bunker entrance was even the same, you can see its sister here, mid way down, same architecture:

gov.uk/government/news/mod- … al-weapons

Anyway, I know that wins the insomniac Olympics, hanging out in ignored WMD dumps in Iraq during the war unable to sleep. One of these days some stray dog is going to start digging at some mound in Iraq and everyone is going to start getting sick.

The bunker was designed all crazy and paranoid… Half of it cooled the steam or something, other half sealed off, both halves had two staircases going five stories underground with catwalks a story under… ladders going down, escape hatches in the air vents, tunnels going nowhere around the air vents… Saddam was paranoid as fuck, but on nights I couldn’t sleep it gave me something to do.

lmfao there were no wmds in iraq.

My dad’s insomnia. He was obsessed, by ghosts. Well, not real ones, but ghosts like Ibsens. Like Ingmar Bergman’s. His film montage of this guy playing chess with death. He had a few external battles like he told me about that night in sztalingrad, where he was prisoner,where word got around.

The word was that the next day they would come around with their rifles and one by one knock out the gold, the crowns the fillings. He took his blade and worked all night getting them all out. He said after he got into it, the pain was less, and someone had a fifth of something and that helped some. It took all night.

Then my mom came to get him, and the price was heavy, trysts with guards, but it was worth it. For her, at the time, and they were barely married for a year, ,but now its now and then they were happy again for a while,then came bouts of depression, and the alcohol soothed some, and there was no water in town anyway, all the pipes broken, and beer was there but expensive. The bread lines and the mild took 3 hours to get through, and there was rationing. Butter, eggs 2 a week.

And now he couldn’t sleep because he had OCD thinking he would not wake up in the morning, he never sleep he claimed.

Early in the morning when the light peaked through the lattices of the chocolate factory, casting long longitudinal lines, the buzz of a fly who stayed there for a few weeks, his friend, was the signal to sink into oblivion. He thought the fly was from another world beckoning him to leave the familiar.

I couldn’t go to his funeral, nor my best friend, who too, was totally into his inner being.

They are out there, or were for a while I can attest to it, until they probably went to another place, another being.

They all say, if only I had another chance to talk with, but we never know when the time for the web to be cut has arrived, maybe it never does but becomes again unfocused, timeless.

We can hold unto this for dear life, and he used to tell me the key is, don’t let people’s thought of you crazy cause it’s just the way it really is. They are afraid to admit it. Maybe he let it go.

I certainly feel him still out there trying to work it out, and the setup was: was his redemption.

Of which’s spider web : as when you find a critical point, and then have to work MASH like, so that they will know, you can catch : 22.

Maybe you could go into a bit more detail?
Prisoner to who?
Did they actually knock out teeth the next day to get the fillings?
Why was your mother there?
The alcohol was after the war? Where?

Stalingrad, 1945. The guard collected watches, and knocked out gold fillings. They were easily bribed. Mother had to use her charms with a lot of them, in a very literal way, to release him. After that, he told me he was afraid to sleep.

Speaking of insomnia…

I’ve been working on my room for the past couple of months, kind of slowly collecting the things I need/want in order to be comfortable, and getting rid of a lot of things in order to keep the amount of “stuff” I have at an acceptable minimum. Yesterday after work, I bought some collapsible storage thingies (yep, “thingies”), but by the time I got home I just really wasn’t in the mood to do any sorting/rearranging, so I said fuck it and threw the bag against the wall.

Of course, midnight rolled around, and suddenly the idea of going to sleep with those storage bins sitting against the wall and not where I wanted them, full of my stuff, was unacceptable.

Yeah there was Smears, just not a whole lot was found. You got access to someone who was stationed in the heart if it there, neither Foxnews nor MSNBC was there to tell us what to think. Half the electrical output for the state of Iraq went to the WMD fort, and most of the C4 used in the triangle of death was C4 from the stockpiles used in that fort by Saddam… shit was sadly documented and not acted upon till three days after it was first taken, and by then the C4 already disappeared. That was the first place the UN weapons inspectors checked… they found most of the place emptied out and abandoned.

They came too late. It’s hard for someone who spent over a year there, in reality, looking at the plant and seeing where half its power lines went to nearby to be in agreement with you.

Does Alabama exist? Fuck no, there is no such things as Huntsville or The Gulf of Mexico.

How do you know that was half the power or that those weapons were there? Even the republicans admitted there weren’t any.