The plain fact is that if you don’t have a problem, you create one. If you don’t have a problem, you don’t feel that you are living. So the solutions that we have been offered by those in whom we have tremendous faith, are not really the solutions. If they were the solutions, the problems wouldn’t be there at all. If there are no solutions for the problems, even then the problems wouldn’t be there. We would like to live with those problems, and if we are free from one problem, we create another. Without problems you will be bored.
Boredom is a bottomless pit. There is no way you can be freed from boredom. You like your boredom, but all the time you are trying to free yourself from boredom. As long as you think that there is something more interesting, more purposeful, more meaningful to do than what you are actually doing, you have no way of freeing yourself from boredom. So, it goes on and on. If you don’t entertain yourself with a movie, you might go to a guru and meditate, or you might want to listen to a spiritual man telling you all kinds of stories. He will sell you some shoddy piece of goods - “Stand on your head, stand on your shoulders, do this and do that, and you will be all right.”
But the basic question which none of us is willing to ask is: what is it that we want? Whether you are in Holland, in America, or in Africa, anywhere, what you are really interested in is the quest for permanent happiness. That is all that we are interested in. All these spiritual experts who are marketing these shoddy pieces of spiritual goods are telling us that there is some way you can have eternal and permanent happiness. But that doesn’t happen. We invest our faith in them so that it gives us hope, and we go on doing the same thing over and over again . And we continue to live in that hope. But it does not help us to get what we are really interested in, namely, to be permanently happy. There is no such thing as permanence at all, let alone permanent happiness.
The quest for permanent happiness is a lost battle; but we are not ready to accept that fact. What we are left with is some moments of happiness and some moments of unhappiness. If we are not ready to accept that situation, and still demand a non-existent permanent happiness, we are not going to succeed.
It is not just a question of succeeding, or wanting to be in a permanent state of happiness, but that demand is the enemy of this living organism. The organism is not interested in happiness at all. It is only interested in its survival. What is necessary for the survival of this living organism is its sensory perceptions along with the sensitivity of the senses and nervous system. The moment you find yourself in a happy situation and tell yourself that you are happy, the demand that this happiness should continue for a longer time is bound to be there. And the more you try to prolong that sensation of happiness beyond its natural duration, the more there is danger for this system which is only interested in maintaining its sensitivity. So, there is a battle going on between your demand for permanent happiness and the demand of the body to maintain its sensitivity. You are not going to win this battle; yet you are not ready to give it up.