I can’t remember what got me started on this line of thought, but it has begun to trouble me over the last few days.
I have always viewed knowledge as important to me. I enjoy learning things. I always have. I think (though I am not entirely sure) that I began to study philosophy for the same reason that many other people begin to study religion - I was on a search for truth. I didn’t (and still don’t) know why exactly - I suppose that it was simply to satisfy my latent human curiosity. However, the more I come to learn, not just about philosophical thought but about the totality of “what-is”, the more futile the entire search seems. The “what-is” seems to get further and further away, as I inebriate myself with conflicting opinions and epistemological scepticism.
This harsh realisation had me preoccupied a while ago, until I came to the conclusion that my reality - even if it could never be proven to be infallible or complete - was as good as it was going to get. All I could be certain of was that which I “knew”: I cannot postulate on beings or concepts that lie beyond what I know and what I have experienced. I have shined the torch on the small area of “what-is” that lies in front of me, but the rest of reality is certain to remain shrouded in darkness. What is true - beyond my own experiences (or that of mankind if you wish to expand the idea) - may lie forever hidden, which leaves me with little but my own “knowledge”, the certainty that I exist and the comfort that I still possess a small, insufficient torch to further illuminate the incomprehensible darkness that surrounds my very being. The reality that is external to myself, and unrealised to myself, is irrelevent. There is only one reality and that is my own - anything external to it is incomprehensible and beyond my concern. That something can be true before I have comprehended and realised it is absurd - there is not some great vat of truth to tap into, external to us. What we know and “what-is” are tied to each other. What I know becomes reality. After all this philosophy, I returned - having gone the long way - to the first philosophical concept I was ever taught: “cogito ergo sum”.
While I may seem like an absolute skeptic from the above paragraphs - and an extreme rationalist at that - I would hasten to add that I am not really anything of the sort. I do not deny the faculty of the senses, or the existence of a world beyond our own existence, just that to refer to anything within the totality of “what-is” - from a philosophical standpoint - that lies beyond our own, individual experiences (both rational and empirical) is to point to the ontological darkness that surrounds each of us and make out shapes that may or may not be there. Like the child who goes to bed and imagines monsters in the darkness, so to do we conjour up imaginary being when we point to a reality - as part of this totality of “what-is” - that lies beyond our own.
However, look at my words - “from a philosophical standpoint”. If we approach the subject from an angle of philosophical logic, then we will most likely end up with this somewhat defeatist perspective (or at least I did). I am aware that, as someone will doubtless point out, philosophical logic - as a more refined form of human logic - is fallible. However, I cannot point to a more objective logic as a result of my very subjectivity, and therefore this human logic constitutes a part of my knowledge, and is the only tool I have to decipher what my torch illuminates. Our systems of logic may be fallible, but what forms of logic will you employ to prove them false?
Anyway, as I said, a philosophical inclination has led me down this path of mild doubt, yet, at the same time, I am comfortable - in my everyday life - to think in direct contradiction to them. My logic tells me that that which lies beyond my frame of knowledge is not part of my reality, yet I have no problems with believing that, for instance, there are asteroids hurtling around our solar system that no human being has ever seen, and that I certainly haven’t seen. My experiences - with what I understand of astronomy - tell me that these asteroids must exist, and so I assume with utter faith that they do, even though no human being may never encounter them. Do only the asteroids that fly past our planet - and are noticed by astronomers - have the right to be considered as having the property (if it can be called that) of that which “is”? Or is it reasonable to postulate that any asteroid not experienced by a human being lies beyond reality and thus can never - in a human sense - be? Does being part of the totality of “what-is”, even if it is never experienced by anyone or anything (if other sentient beings exist), give it the “right” to exist?
And this has troubled me. Really, all I can ever know is that which I have experienced as true, and all that can be true can be said to be only that which I know. My reality is shaped by that which I know, and can be shaped by nothing more or less. Reality and knowledge are - in essence - the one and the same. But what about when I cease to exist? When I cease to experience, and when my knowledge - in my state of irrevokable unconsciousness - disappears and so with it, too, goes my frame of reality. The only reality. Or, that is to say, my only realisable reality - the only one I know, the only one I can consider to be true. I die, so too does my possibility for experience, my wealth of knowledge and - from that - reality and truth. There is no reality - no world, no universe, no being, no dasein - beyond death. I die and everything dies with me. You all cease to exist when I do. It becomes immoral to die.
But then I continue to think, and another realisation hits me. For all this which I presume to be true, I cannot say that it effects the way I live my life. I can say with sincerity that much of philosophy has helped me think a new way - mainly to appreciate experiences, objects and people to a degree I hadn’t before - but for my transcendent musings, I still live life in complete contradiction to much of the nihilistic rhetoric contained above. It is of no use to me. I consider it true - more or less (it’s not a dogmatic theory, I understand where and how it could be fallible) - yet, at the same time, I am not usually conscious of it. I do not need to be. Even if I have all these thoughts bouncing around my brain, it rarely changes my mindstate or behaviour. The world keeps turning, my day-to-day worries are still relevant, and I operate much as I did before.
So then I returned to my original line of thought about the quest for truth and I wondered: “what’s the point?”. Why do I search for truth? Why do I attempt to expand my concept of reality by pointing my torch further into the blackness that surrounds me? How much of it is likely to affect my life? I realise that everything one comes to know (via experience or any other method) shapes their life in some small way, but why do we all seek truth? That which is real, and which lies beyond our existential horizon? What value, when push comes to shove, does truth actually serve?
And here’s where the pragmatism part of the subject becomes relevent. Examining the concept of truth from a pragmatic stance, where do we end up? What value is the knowledge that the Earth revolves around the sun, or that we descended from apes for instance? Can it possibly affect that way we live our lives? Is truth only as valuable as its usefulness (in the pragmatic sense)? Should we only learn - or make an effort to know - that which can directly affect the way we operate? Can truth only be useful in its application to us?
Is finding truth simply a means of satisfying our human curiosity about what lies in the ontological darkness, or is there some more pragmatic modality to it? Can the value truth only be measured in terms of how it affects us, or how useful it is?
Why do you all search for truth?