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Parodites:
“Yes the Jews did have that myth of encountering God too soon. One must properly measure one’s drink of the divine liquor, by pouring it into and through all the sephiroth or vessels of creation- if one takes it directly, without measuring it in the sephiroth, one likely becomes mad.”
Ive gone mad, unfortunately, mad with terror and shame, all based on all the happened since I left my homeland where I had just been given the Runes for my dreadful, soul ruining stay in Canada. I was pure, led myself be seduced to “take over the world”, whereas really, in the position I was in, living with Sauwelios and his girl in a beautiful house where I had the two best rooms for a third of the rent, and 60.000 euros in my pocket, and more importantly my philosophy and the runes, I was already on top of the world. My vanity was my weakness and I am now paying for it. I have been afraid to get back on here because of the intense hostilities but right now its the only place I still recognize a part of myself in.
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The difference between pride and vanity - -
pride would have kept me in Amsterdam, working on my own stuff, vanity brought me to Canada to “conquer the world” with someone exhibiting admiration for me.
I had been made vain bu my shrink, who told me I should go make philosophy videos - before that it has not occurred to me I was worthy of being seen on screen.
Parodites’ AI says something interesting about pride;
The difference between pride and vanity is of course less poetic, more banal.
On dreams, he says;
But what of nightmares?
A kabbalist, the Nemeton, who is awesome, says of dreams that they occur to us in the sphere of Yesod, and reflect our altered state of being, integrate that alteration into our (sub)consciousness.
Unfortunately I have not been able to finish my own kabbalistic series, it has stagnated as Yesod, the second to last, after the making of which I pagan to deteriorate into madness, into a victim mindset. That deterioration happened on this site. But it has been in development since my departure for Canada. Though in the first month or two I had some good experiences there, I succumbed to weaknesses which there were far more costly for me than they had been at home. I wasted 60.000 euros in two years and came out of it sick and insane.
Sort off restored myself a bit afterwards but really, did not return to a truly sane state of mind and went down in a kind of waveform, a biut up, then further down, a bit up again, still further down -
Before I saw that shrink, it has not occurred to me ever that I was the victim of anyone. Sure I suffered all kinds of mental conditions, but did never felt resentment.
Lessons; never respond to flatterers, never to those who say you are a victim.
Very simple, elementary lessons many people have learned very early on.
Yeah, kind of.
That whole “The Philosophers” thing was the beginning of insanity.
What made me do that, in gods name?
two months before, I was here;
beforethelight.forumotion.com/t … er-flowers
and here;
I cant even remember what caused me to start his idiotic “Philosophers Clan”.
Obviously it would have been appeals to my vanity.
Don’t be too hard on yourself, fixed, existence has been fixed long before we became aware of it , punning here, and it was highly probable that sadly we could wake up from our long, endearing slumbers and try to retain that precious cargo: the vanity of existence , for we live and would die for!
It doesn’t seem entirely true that I wasted all in Canada, I did some good work back here, and looking back at other videos from 2015 I wasn’t truly doing brilliantly. I remember the freshness I first felt in Montreal on the mountain.
Yes, remember it well.
It is a tribute to existence that it filters out sad memories just enough to make life probably more worth living for, than give it up to the perceived vagrancies of fate. Rose colored glasses are a useful tool , that does appease the dark side for some measure of contentment.
I lived through that magic mountain mysel, at a sorely needed time, and although I was on acid, the one and only time in my life, , although it almost literally killed me, figuring out what was bugging me (at the time, being a very heavy burden), the sense of liberation after making it through the doors, into the light, lasted a lifetime.
Well worth the risk.
I tried to get beyond the green door as welll, and found it a scintilla close to the summit of the natural magical high, blissfully the latter win out, .
Striving for elegance in the above description begs for forgiveness, on basis of the situation consisted of totally pre arranged state of mind of total, early chaotic indulgence, marginally brought on by the adage , wait, looking for the expression:
“All Things Are Possible Prayer
Heavenly Father, I am desperate, please hear my prayer. With man, this may be impossible, but with God all things are possible. Please make all my plans succeed, clear away these obstacles and make my path smooth. Thank You for answering all my prayers, and taking action to bring me victory with Your great power. I boast in the name of the Lord my God. Amen.”
I could also hear you whispering, “not so fast meno, how can such presumptions be verified in a court of higher judgment/opinion?
Well, here are
confessions of a Christian Baal Worshipper
Pact with the Devil? Null and Void!! How?
May 23, 2012
Have you made a pact with the Devil? Now you have decided you really don’t want to forfeit your immortal soul for temporary things. The old adage
you can’t take it with you when you go
has become up close and personal. The truth is you are an eternal being and no, you can’t take it with you when you go. Maybe whatever it is you traded your soul for has turned to ash in your mouth and a burden on your existence. Perhaps you were convinced that there would never be a way out for you. There is a way out and that is the discussion of this blog. First, you must understand what you were dealing with when you made your pact. Satan or an agent of Satan, whether human or a non-human entity, would probably have been the conduit through which your pact was made. The Bible is very clear on one thing Satan is a liar.
John 8:44 Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your fahter ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own for he is a liar, and the father of it,
Immediately, we can see that any pact with the devil is a lie. That is plain and simple. So, you can rest assured you are not bound eternally to a pact you made with the devil no matter what the evil and vile circumstances you may have sunk to to gain your pact. Please know I do mean evil and vile. Many an innocent has been sacrificed in the pursuit of evil pacts but even then there is forgiveness. What is necessary to cancel that pact? There is only one thing that can cancel a pact with Satan and that is the Precious Blood of Jesus Christ. It will be necessary for you to fall on your knees and confess your sins before God and ask to receive the free gift of the blood of Jesus Christ. How can you know that you are safe and free from an eternity in Hell trapped in an eternal body? Simple according to
Romans 8:35-39 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36 As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. 37 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. 38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, 39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Do you notice in verse 38 it says “nor angels, nor pricipalities, nor powers,” Satan is a fallen angel. According to the Word of God, Satan the angel cannot separate you from God and that includes any business you contracted with Satan. We are given the most wonderful information in
II Peter 1:4 Whereby are given unto us exceeding great and precious promises: that by these ye might be partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust.
It was surely some form of lust that led you to make a pact with Satan but once you receive Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior
II Corinthians 5:17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.
including old pacts with the devil and all evil deeds and thoughts that occurred before you receive Christ. Complications to consider - when making your pact an evil spirit may have entered your body or attached itself to you to empower and gain the riches or desires in the pact. That evil spirit may be keeping you from receiving Christ and you may need deliverance. If you cannot come to Christ on your own then seek out a knowledgeable bible believing Christian to help you. How will you know? If you go into a church and you feel comfortable there then you are probably in the wrong place. The right church or person will probably elicit a dual response from you. The demon spirit residing inside you or oppressing you, will want to flee, while your human spirit will want to stay. That will most likely be the place or the person where you can receive help. If there is no one to help you then ask God to send you help or to have mercy on your mortal soul. Choose the living water and believe on Jesus Christ and receive Eternal Life with Him in Heaven today!
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Anonymous said…
Hi, I had made deals in my head more than once with various voices I hear in my head and I tried to pay them all of 23 times but they never leave me alone. Are you sure its possible for me to be saved I go to church but the demons won’t leave me alone and I’m afraid god has abandoned me.
January 2, 2018 at 7:04 PM
Hummingbird said…
I apologize, I just saw your comment. God has not abandoned you and if you have called on the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and repented of your sins - then you are saved and are in the battle of your life. Going to Church does not save a person, only calling on the name of Jesus Christ asking for His forgiveness and turning from your sinful life. You must seek out help from a true believer in Christ that understands the mechanics of deliverance from demons. Once you accept Christ the demons can no longer indwell you but they can harass you as you have said. Please start reading your Bible out loud starting in the Gospel of John. You need to also start reading from Genesis along with reading John. And have the most powerful tool in the world, it is the name of Jesus Christ. Say, I rebuke all demon powers by the authority of the name of Jesus Christ and His Shed Blood on the Cross - out loud and as often as possible. I hope this helps you and will be praying for God to send you help!
July 23, 2019 at 9:37 AM
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I am just a southern girl raised in a pentecostal church. Church attendance and bible reading were mandatory in our home. It actually drove me away from God but gave me a great foundation in understanding the Word of God. At the age of 19 I made my adult commitment to Jesus Christ. 33 years later through many ups and downs I’m still learning and learning and learning. My formal education consist of a BA in Criminal Justice from the University of South Alabama. So, I guess you can say I like to investigate. I have been happily married for the last 31 years to the love
But a third time must be found now, I hear your more tumultuous and urgent call, but alas, must visit my former playground in the city of the summer of love, which at last visit turned Height street into the hateful commercial center it morphed into. Be back at your more time relaxed(elongated-shortened beck and call)
Meanwhile shooting the breeze, to an obligatory familial, but not unfamiliar assembly here.
Imagine the head trip if they have the tech to subaudibly manipulate waves so you think thoughts that did not originate from you, and they include exorcism techniques tech-wielders want you to do anyway… like prayer (more data mining) & fasting (the pervs). Rofl I’d watch that movie. Hell, I’d even live it.
Well yes , that is almost beyond imagination,
Damn. So close.
Being being being.
No more thoughts.
All can heal.
…and so ‘becoming becoming becoming’?
Sounds cathartic… hope it is?
Heal thyself, bruddah! 