The Punishing God

I wrote this a few weeks ago on a friend’s wallpost. She had written a post about being discriminated against for being a homosexual, having difficulties finding God, and more.

“I grew up with a punishing god, a god that had already condemned me to an eternity in hell for rubbing my clit, smoking cigarettes or struggling with my sexuality - ALL before I ever even got the chance to know him. My parents are JWs and that’s their way. Took me a long time to realize that their god is not grace… and “god” only really is Good Orderly Direction, it’s GOoDness as you understand it, etc, etc. Yeah, how many times I’ve waited for god to bash my head into the computer screen while watching pornography in my dark living room… or how long i’ve wondered why god makes it SO difficult for me to go in the stag shop :frowning: I have realized that’s not really god, that’s fear and insecurity instilled in me by the wrath of a god that is worshiped my sick people … that’s not what god is to me, my god is loving compassion kindness, forgiveness, prudence charity creative, fun, horny, happy, smokes often…ALSO … I feel like i can get this off my chest now, I’ve often fantasized about how nice sexy times between you and your current partner most likely are and it’s very nice for me to think about … sorry if this is out of line… but remember that people want what you have, don’t take your love for granted… i know i do that sometimes !! :slight_smile: you just amazed me in that post :smiley: so glad I read it thanks for sharing”