Each post I make here is just another example of my life, of yours when you read it. Of the net when it comes a part of it. Of history when the time gets to it.
Is this my post? If I write it in anger is it not yours? I’m not in control of what I do when I’m angry. But if I write it in empathy am I not giving it to you as well? This very act is existential. Masked as they may seem these are our thoughts and nothing more.
Should I not be writing for now, for me, for the ILP social dynamics, for the net, for the future unborn? What is it to think? To say to yourself: What should I be thinking right now?
What should I be writing right now? Who am I even talking to?
Hello? I scream into the empty abyss. I watch the page reload with my words on it. Sometimes I’ll read other pages with words about my words but it’s fleeting. I feel like I have free will on the net but I don’t. It’s just a game for me, the observer.
My particles are veying for attention from the rest of the universe - just like my words are.
my dear old friend, you are asking the question all of us ponders on but never dares to ask.
whatever you say is for yourself and no one else. it is as you say an extension of your personality and thoughts and is meant just for you. whatever you intend when you say something doesnt matter as it will be interpreted differently by any person listening to you.
so write what you will as we will not understand it anyway
talking to yourself? is thinking less effective alone? can you reason by yourself or do you need someone to come along for the ride to confirm you’re thoughts for you?
Just complain. The more we complain, the less empty we feel and the less burdened we are with such questions. Fortunately we can always find something to complain about.
your actions may all have a very specific cause, but that doesnt mean that you cant enjoy the essentially real illusion of free will. you can learn from your environment that perhaps your train of thought is too constricted, and the idea of you not having a free enough will (which youve discovered empirically) causes you to start up the predetermined algorithm to broaden your horizons. you methodically and predictably ask yourself what can be done, and come to a conclusion that is based entirely on your previous experience: ive already thought of all the interesting combinations, and if i want more, ill have to search new environmental experiences.
then again maybe its not free. maybe its not always possible to make the decision that you need to search for more experience. the decision to pursue more experience hinges on the previous experience with pursuing experience. if pursuing more new experience caused happiness in the past, youll be likely to do it; if it caused pain, you wont. and if you read these words here, you can calculate in the desire to spite me.
No… but the lines are really starting to blur for me.
FM,
What if free will is collectively decided? What if… We’re free to drive the school bus anywhere we want, provided the students (the universe) can come to a consensus?
No need for sarcasm. There is nothing worse than complaining with doubt. It makes it impotent defeating the purpose. The trick is to complain with more personal motivation and conviction. We are entightled dammit! Get into it. This eliminates the doubt and the source of these troublesome questions that OG is experiencing.
I know you’re positing. I sense doubt though for the reason for posting in general:
This doubt and lack of direction will vanish as soon as you put your whole self into complaining. At least then you will get the satisfaction of screaming into a direction. Just remember that it is all funny and really just sucks. Hold on to this conviction. Then these doubts will disappear.
