Tired

I’m not a people person in general, no. I’m not the type who gets all shy or has to grimace through situations that involve a lot of people, it’s quite easy for me to be around people most of the time and I discovered my brain has a magical charisma switch that I can flip when I really want to be the center of attention. It’s just that I’d rather not be around people, because I don’t like them very much. Most people are far too concerned with what other people are doing. I mean, when someone is throwing it in your face it’s cool to respond, but even then – you see how phon reacted in the other thread when I mentioned about how I want to change some things. It’s a hasty rush to judgment, a need to categorize the person as a whole rather than accepting that what you’re observing is one facet of a person. People are like that. It’s just annoying to me.

But my job requires me to be around a lot of people every day, so I deal with it as best as I can.

The majority of people are judgemental, selfish-importance, ego-filled. A lot of people like to think they’re the center, it’s just a delusional state of thinking/illusion. The vast majority live for themselves, while few live for nature/universe. I don’t agree with labels, groups, conformity, etc. Humans cannot be labeled for who, what, why they are. They aren’t slabs of meat that can be categorized so easily.

It’s delusional thinking because - “A human being is a part of a whole, called by us universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest… a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.” - Albert Einstein

Einstein explains it well. A lot of people are simply trapped in their own minds without even realizing it.

I am not that well with people at all, I am like Steve Jobs in the sense of I can’t stand working for someone else, just the thought makes me feel uneasy. So I really do not know what I am going to do anymore. I cannot be successful or move on/up in this reality of which is surrounded by money/material governing over all. I don’t even agree with money in the first place. I don’t want to become another one of those people who work to live, then die. I don’t really want to contribute to the paradigms and illusions of “life”. But it seems that I have to anyways, even if I am unhappy in doing so.

That is courage and patience though, to be able to deal with being around people even though you do not want to. Even when surrounded by the judgemental delusional ones. Not a lot of people like to face discomfort when they have comfort. That’s the point of our created social constructs/society, comfort for us.

Have You ever dared a total ego regression through a totally, non timed isolation tank? Or/and dropped acid (lsd) while doing it? That can really set in boundaries real quick without the necessity to put on workable masks. I dared it one time, almost lost my life and mind respectively. Worth a try. After that You really do appreciate a whiff in the pine forest.
It may be a rude awakening, that i dare not repeat nowadays, out of a feeling of responsibility for my loved ones.

eat
some
fucking
butter

Maybe if I wanted clogged arteries.

Put a little red bull in your vodka.

Supposedly some people did a class action suit against redbull because they drank it and did not get wings.
and won…

I did not fact check.

The suit argues that Red Bull misleads consumers about the superiority of its products with its slogan “Red Bull gives you wings” and its claims of increased performance, concentration and reaction speed, to name a few. This deception is proliferated through the company’s advertising on television, the Internet, social media and events, athlete endorsers, glossy print brochures, marketing campaigns and its slogan-promoting Red Bull Flugtag series, according to the suit.

“Such deceptive conduct and practices mean that [Red Bull’s] advertising and marketing is not just ‘puffery,’ but is instead deceptive and fraudulent and is therefore actionable,” the suit says.

Almost everything’s propaganda.