Perhaps feeling too old? It isn’t so much of a physical tired, it’s just there, not sure how to describe it… it’s not your normal sleepy tired, but you know you’re tired. Perhaps it’s the mind that is tired? I don’t know anymore, and I don’t think I ever did.
How can you have a young body, but then feel old and tired? As if you have been here longer than you really have? Does anyone else feel as if they have been here too long and they are just tired? Perhaps it is just depression that makes me, or anyone else feeling this way. This tired though? Or is it something else besides that? I have always felt as if I have been here too long. Is there a point to all of this tiredness, a point to all of this? Perhaps it is society and the negativity spewing around the globe creating the tired feel? Does anyone else ever feel as if they do not belong anymore, or that they’re too old and tired to even want to go on, not with life but with doing as well? Drained or perhaps not drained, but seeing no point? What point is there to do anything when feeling so old and tired, so bored with it all? Perhaps it is the lack of new? The lack of talking and social interaction with other humans/life? Of which makes me feel so tired? Perhaps we’re in a constant never ending loop of repeating events of which makes me tired? The older I get, will I feel more tired? eventually until I reach the point of death before death? How tired and old can one feel?
I was internally tired for years… each year more tired than the last, then I changed my diet and I feel back to about 95% of my former self.
I find that even the slightest additive, colouring, or preservative messes with my internal workings (both mentally and physically) and I avoid them at all costs - the body was never designed to digest such compounds, so they wear us down over time… like a toxic build up.
Many people go through life nowadays without deep sleep. Due to all the distractions and wifi radiation (apparently many do not realize that these are actual physical forces with a high impact on electron spin in our body) and what not, probably. I now live at sea for the winter and suddenly I sleep well again.
But more than any of these subtle negatives, it is the absence of physical exertion that makes the body truly tired, or stuck in a modus where it is no use, or no automatic reaction, to activate. If you get up for a long time without a clear and quite challenging goal, the body simply has no reason to not be tired.
If you do not push your body to exhaustion on a sort of regular basis, forces will half-linger, neither expend nor subside, causing stress, contradicting and annoyingly resonating forces in the body, which is felt as tiredness.
Was in Oregon, me and ex fiance broke up, so I moved back down to Vegas, helps with forgetting and what not. I miss Oregon though, was way more peaceful.
You need to search for something which will give you a new lease on life. Something other than what you’ve been doing. That doesn’t mean to let go of what you do have in your life - well, you might want to at some point but you have to find some new passion, I don’t mean a person but something that you can become passionate about, something that will give you another raison de-etre. I’m not speaking about a new job although it might be that but it doesn’t have to be. We all go through what you are experiencing. Everything in nature fizzles out at times and needs to be rejuvenated. That’s probably why we have four seasons. lol
Sometimes our lethargy stays with us until we’re willing to move forward in a different vein.
You need to find your passion. Be an explorer, go in search of it. Even that will give you new-found energy and passion.
Hint: It might be in the least likely place you woul think of. Maybe wrong - I’m just saying.
I was just thinking that the other day… I need something to give my life meaning again. But I don’t know what exactly could do that. Definitely not a person, turned out for the worse last time. It isn’t physical tiredness, it is not easy to explain what it is. Not my eyes or body, just my mind feels tired… perhaps bored, there is no point I guess.
There could very well be a point. Just be careful you don’t prick yourself with it. lol
Maybe it’s your avatar. Maybe it’s doing something with your brain. Maybe it’s having the opposite effect of what it otherwise might be having.
What did you like to do when you were a little boy or a little girl? If that got stifled someone by your parents, maybe that’s something you can think about. Sometimes what we like as little children to do is kind of like a metaphor for what we might grow up enjoying. It might not be seen in reality though but as a metaphor. For instance, a little boy or girl who absolutely loved to play in the mud and make little cakes, might want to grow up to a baker or a sculptor. Maybe you can take up sculpting or become a potter. I’ve always been fascinated by that. Or maybe you can become a glass blower. Just imagine the marriage of electricity to sand. That is so fascinating - even understanding it scientifically speaking, wouldn’t make it any less fascination - which I don’t understand.
In the “What are you doing right now” thread I mentioned about how I’m feeling discontent with my life in general, kind of how you mention here. The tired, I think it goes along with that. It’s like a bone-deep weariness, but at the same time not physical, like you said. I’m not positive what it’s stemming from in my own life, but I suspect it has something to do with being discontent and still having to maintain appearances and trudge along through the days.
I liked Science and exploration. What left is there to explore anyways? Can’t just go walking around where ever you want. There are laws, trespassing, fines, etc.
Even as a little boy I went to explore out in the desert and would be brought home by police and scolded. This world is a prison, a well decorated one. Many just do not notice the bars. Both of those things remind me of the past, glass blowing and pottery heh… that’s interesting of you to mention. Can’t do those, would have too many memories popping up and distracting me.
Arduino interested me when I saw it, electricity interests me, I love plants and nature. There are a lot of interesting things. But too many to choose from. I was planning on doing chemistry before, then Botany/Horticulture, but I don’t know anymore. What would be the point of that, how does a Botanist contribute to the advancement of humanity? Seems to me electrical engineers, Physcists/Astronomers, etc do the most. Arduino is technology as well, micro-controllers. What am I supposed to do it all? I love philosophy, but you can’t get a job doing that, you can only get jobs using it. Philosophy can turn you into the jack of all trades. What I have passion for is illegal because of the monopoly.
Many reasons for me. A. Lonely again after used to not being it for once. B. Seeing the obvious blatant things around/about the world/reality. It doesn’t matter if or what you try to fix, It’s the comfort vs discomfort effect, a lot of people are machine, cold hearted. A lack of of compassion and self-humility. They ridicule, reject, label and etc. A lot of people are just ego, it blocks things of which matter and need to be changed from fear/stubbornness of being wrong. I guess it only matters if you try. C. Trapped in my own world of which is being used as a prison, not free to do or go where I want without paying, obeying or being restricted. It’s ridiculous.
I guess people like being used, lied to, abused, etc?
What do you mean maintain appearances? Are you a people person? I’m not, that’s a problem for me honestly. I am Introvert and do not like public too much. I am not exactly one for small talk.
I get tired of things all the time. Vegas is a neat place, but every time i go there, it reminds me of all the money wasted there. One gets the sense of rootlessness there, of people constantly on the search, of waiting to move on to the next bonanza. And then, i get the sense, that tiredness is not something You really want to avoid, it is something You are searching for. Not the tiredness its’self the the excuse to rest, in a restful, peaceful place. That and the loneliness may be effecting You, in addition to the thought, did i make the right choices? Can i move on, cut my losses, wthout hurting whomever, and do whatever, but then a new fangled sensation arises, the fear of the rolling stone, that wherever You may go will be jst the same, that perhaps this time You may nt be able to re-invent Yourself to the degfree needed to suit a new environment. I feel this everh single day, and being a Walter Mitty type, it remains in the realm of fantasy. I may be completely off, but this is what i hear You say. I am with Arcturus, i try to imbue myself with the sense of the strange and the natural. One whiff of some pines, and i am back on track. (In one sense, it’s therapeutic)
I miss the pines… Oregon has them everywhere. Ah I miss the nature and being able to just sit in the forests. This desert is barren and industrial filled… a waste of what could have been great.
