I’ve tried meditation to remove unconcious programming and subliminal impacts.
I’ve tried:
- meditating on my self and who I am
-my free will and ability to choose
-my thoughts and ability to control them
-my awareness and rationality
-the oppositeness of these things to unconcious programming
The strange things is, the practice seems to work, in that they lift the original state. However, the mind seems to resist the meditation, and regresses into behaviours similar (but not identical) to the ones involved during the original state of mind. And after a while, the effect of the meditation fades away, as though it never happened.
On the other hand, some practice did seem to lift the effect in a positive and persistent way. However, I can not understand why it often leads to a sort of resistance/regression. My only guess is that the mind does not ‘like’ the meditation, because it is in some way unethical or undesirable, and tries to revert its effects.
While the meditation was sometimes effective, I can only guess that some parts of the meditation were more desirable, or that the meditation sometimes overlapped with something better. However, it is not obvious what exactly it is from the practice I described.
I’m curious about what ideas or insights anyone might have.