So I’m sitting here at work, in one of my kinda depressed moods, wondering why I get these moods from time to time when I should be counting my blessings.
Then I guess I had an epiphany, only word I could think of, maybe the reason why I feel like this is because I really don’t have a real passion that drives me. Like when I get up in the morning I feel like I’m just going through the motions, there’s no defining motive or inspiration…
I figure it’s because I still don’t really know myself 100% percent yet, but I was curious to get some outside opinion on what motivates your actions? It is to be rich and successful? Or religion, maybe some other outside force?
But as far as passion goes, I would say go to the library and search out non-fiction topics or themes, anything that might tie into your personality. For me its control, so many topics fall under this category. If you search long enough, you will find a passionate issue.
For me its writing fiction. Even if i go to bed at night not wanting to write for such and such a reason I’m still thinking of writing. Usually i wake up and think of writing right away, almost forgeting every reason i had for not wanting to do it. The fact that i think about it, even without so much as writing a word, signals passion.
However, i would say find something that is true to you, and not motivated by money or success, even if that might be some of the result. If you do it strictly for recognition, it divides your reasoning for doing such a thing. It actually works as a deterent for me, and i’m not motivated by what could be failure or the wrong type of success.
Strangely enough, this passion keeps me going. I have a hard time figuring out people who dont have a passion, when i ask them and they dont have an answer. Almost like they have never even given it a thought.
You’ve made the first step, and its a big one, that of wanting a passion. This void can be filled, but a little research goes a long way. Pretty soon you might find it, and after a while you wont be able to remember what you life was like before it, without it. Good luck on your mission, quest.