Hello Joker:
— I’m 21 and I live in the south midwest of the United States.
O- You’re very young then and living in a land of “opportunity” where thousands risk their life to get to, if only to work at a farm.
— I live in poverty
O- How do you get on-line? Local Library? Or Home PC? If the later then you are richer than I. But why do you live in poverty? Is it the govt’s fault or is it your fault? If it the “Man” that is keeping you down then I will agree with you, but if it is no one but yourself then I will not agree with you. Fair?
— social isolation
O- Again, why? You have a skin-disease like leprosy or just a hyper-sense of self? Just as poverty, isolation can be a choice.
— and alienation
O- Alienated from what and by whom? You rail against society and then bitch about being isolated from the herd, pretty much. If society is what you say it is then “alienation” is just merely good sense.
— in a constant world of daily desensitization working a dead end job
O- Work is part of life. “Dead end”? Then apply for a student loan and get a better education and a better job. What will you like to do to earn a living?
— that pays peanuts because I don’t fit in the status quo
O- And so you want the status quo to change rather than doing the changing yourself, is that right? Are you withing for the world to come around? The staus quo is a very subjective thing. You can change yourlife regardless of the status quo of a particular job. And if you’re making peanuts because you don’t fit the status quo, why don’t you change so that you can make the big-bucks? But perhaps you hold that to be true to yourself is of higher value than money. Then shut up and accept the price of your principled living, as you rather be paid peanuts than to be a hypocrite.
— not to mention I don’t fit the intellectual standardizatin of a productive citizen with my lack of quantifying intellectualism in education as I forever remain cursed in this mechanical era as a qualititative thinker with disregard to monetary greed.
O- You don’t fit because you either choose not to fit or lack the ability to fit even if you wanted to. Which is it?
— It also doesn’t help that I don’t play well with others and I don’t like being ordered around with other people.
O- You want your cake and eat it too huh? Start your own bussiness then…
— Now, what exactly does this have to do with the subject at hand?
O- It explains the gross misrepresentation of Justice as a system. Your conditions have compromised your dispassioned study of the subject. You can only project, because of the extremity of your condition, negative elements and cannot see any possitive. I am not surprised. In fact, the interesting thing would have been to hear that you were a 49 year-old doctor making 75,000 a year. Everything you’ve said simply comfirms the theory that a person’s perspective is created by his/her circumstances and does not necessarly reflect the objective reality of the thing in view.
— Quite the contrary. I have alot of expiriences of this world and what I have felt in this little word of ours it’s cruelty, indifference, coldness, malice, humiliation, indignity and spite along with every form of suffering you can possibly imagine.
O- At 21 years of age you have not lived long enough to pass judgment on the reality of the world. It is like writing your life’s autobiography at 21 years of age, as if nothing else could be added to your life and the rest, the next 60 years will be exactly like the first 21. You’re like a person complaining that there is no work to be done just because he is not willing to go work at a McDonald’s flipping burgers, neck and neck with Ramon Beltran Rodriguez. Ramon, who was actually poor, who was actually humiliated and who lived in injustice sees the opportunity of advancement, even from fries tender to order taker as a revelation that this world is good.
— I eat, sleep, and stay awake in cold sweats every night through vicious forms of insomnia from high stress of a life that should be mine but isn’t. I live like a biological machine in isolation and alienation without pleasure or happiness.
O- Again whose fault is that? You cannot lay everything that is wrong with your life at the feet of the state or govt. You have to accept responsibility for the improvement of your own life. It is your responsibility to make what should be what actually is. Don’t make up excuses that another is holding you back.
— I am merely a manifestation of what the world has transformed me
O- This is a poor attempt to escape your responsibility and make your situation the inevitable result of powers outside of yourself. You ever heard of Sartre? He would say that you’re suffering from Bad Faith.
— into over the years through it’s bitter cruelty
O- It’s bitter cruelty…was it condensed solely around you or is it far and wide in it’s reach? Because many are the people who from even worse situations make something of themselves. The world, they realize, does not owe then a thing and they rise up to make opportunities for themselves.
— so if people and society as a whole do not like my beliefs they merely have to look at themselves in the mirror to see the very people who have created me.
O- Earlier you spoke of “slaves”. Are you a slave or a master? Do you know what separates the two?
— My cause is my own selfish interests.
O- That is not a cause but a natural disposition you don’t even have to think through.
— I care not for useless crusades or holy wars of other people.
O- Part of the problem. Doing things for others might make you aware of the good things in your life by seeing those less fortunate, the truly poor, the truly abused, thus bringing a clearer perspective, a higher perspective of what the situation of your life actually is.
— Such as?
O- Your idea (if it is yours and not something you lifted from some ideologue) of Justice for example.
— Show me the positive aspects in which you speak of. Many days I wish I could find such instances that people speak of but in my search of it all I find only hypocrisy.
O- You are going to have to change yourself before you can see beyond the color goggles of your own self-importance. Go to hospitals and homeless shelters. Visit the blind and the deformed. But as far as justice is concerned I can only wonder if you have ever used the system which you criticise. Have you ever been in court as a defenant or as a plaintiff?
— Show me somthing beyond the world’s hypocrisy that I can believe in.
O- You want me to show you what you cannot see right now. First of all, I don’t have a duty to show you anything. It is you who have a duty to yourself. I can go on living rather happily without a further care about Joker and his angst. You are again passing the buck, expecting someone else, someone other than yourself to pick of the tab of your life, thus continuing the victimhood mentality of Joker. Nothing I can show you will change matters for you because the problem is not the world but yourself. The hyprocrisy you see or detect is your projection. A change in yourself and that means taking reins of your life, will lead to a change of opinion about the hypocrisy of the world. Only a change in your life, self-effected, will do the trick.
— In my world don’t benefit at all. In my world I feel like a slave bombarded by other people’s selfish interests where other people control most of life more so than I control my own.
O- I know. Again, this is expected from a frustrated mind. My question is what are YOU going to do about it? Stop looking around for someone else to change the situation of your life.
— Slowly my resentment is turning into rage which leaves me with thoughts of violence in that if society keeps pushing me around pretty soon people will see a side of me that they will never want to see in that I will not be responsible for the chaos that will come out of me through the consequence of their own actions upon me.
O- Be careful with your thoughts least the are raped by your rage. You need to channel that violence into yourself. I don’t mean that you have to punish yourself in order that you will not punish the world, but that you must direct that severity through yourself and wage war against the part of you that is lazy and uncommitted to the battle ahead for the future of “You”. You must deny your self and descend from this high-horse of vanity-for-nothing. Learn, I hope, that to lead you must first learn and practice following orders and following others. You must sacrifice something to gain something. Look around you and see how X-individual thrieves and leaps ahead of you. Because he is a suck-up? But he is not impotent. If from the sky fall lemons then learn how to make lemonade. If the status quo is such and such then learn how to work the status quo in your favor.
— You have no idea where I come from and if most people were in my place right now they would probally wonder why I haven’t taken my own life in death yet if they could only expirience the pain or trauma that I have felt.
O- I can tell that there is frustration, pain and many disappointments…I can only speculate as to the character of your first 21 years of life, but you’re not a child anymore. People overcome pain and trauma to live better, though challenging lives. People channel, they use their pain and and trauma creatively…why can’t you? Or why won’t you?