Haha you only show up once I finally feel solid inside.
Fuck Ichthus.
Btw, that was a fuck, Ichthus. Just, you know, in kizzase.
Goddamnit.
I’m cool.
Speak English.
15 chizzaracters
Ch was my first go, bur then my Latin mind found that too ambiguous.
Everybody at work loves me except this girl. Fucking life, eh?
Fucking Ichthus.
yeah, because it’s my fault 
Now I’m sad. This is better though, at least I’m not angry, or crazy. Just sad.
You fill me with hope. I only fall deeper into the hole lol.
I don’t actually blame you, and I apreciate having a genuine person that cares around. I also like that you seem to have a concurrently romantic and realistic spirit. I wish I could attain what you seemed to have saw. That wishing then hurts a bit. I don’t actually blame you for it.
It is what it is.
I identify as a war person. I always have. This whole plan is putting me in a good mood.
I realized today is weekend though. I gotta call Monday.
Some days of respite from those eyes. Maybe I can strengthen the clarity I woke up with this morning.
I mean the good thing about the email is that she’ll know how serious it is to me. And she has no fear, so she won’t have the psycho fear, she doesn’t feel any level of threat from me. Relations are friendly and easy as ever, she still smiles and stares with those eyes. Not as close as when we were flirting, but it does make me wonder sometimes. So the email is good news, if there is anything there from her, it will come out. Maybe after the two weeks I ask her number again one last time.
This whole experience has gotten me to know myself way better, though. It’s interesting. Maybe that’s why letting go is seeming less unthinkable (unless Ichthus, with her beautiful intentions, rocks my boat), she is leaving me the gift of understanding who I am a little better.
I don’t mind pain, I’ll take pain if it is an investment for something. But simple flagelation, I won’t do it.
People like you are why everybody is afraid to hit on everybody now. A generetion of tinder robots.
Go spread your old hag shit elsewhere.
Your rants are just as pathetic you know. What are you trying to achieve?