Ugh I’m fucking even more lost than before.
Are you saying that you were administered anesthetics during childbirth, had no drug-assisted visions from them, and thus what I wrote is nonsense?
I’ve done all kinds of drugs. I’ve been in survival mode. Natural child birth w/o drugs (and I have experienced it with drugs, too) was worse than my worst … “vision”… with or without drugs… in terms of what survival mode does to reason. Natural child birth = okay with death (would be better than surviving another second). Worst trip = already dead (forget survival mode—can’t even trust mind), but scared witless as to if that is a fact… still… better than hard labor in terms of being okay with “surviving another second”.
TMI? Too much whatever-it-is.
No, that makes sense.
I don’t think it counters me, because you are talking beyond-survival. That’s a different state from survival.
Is that what they’re calling madness these days?
Anybody who knows anything about pain will have no trouble understanding that what you are saying is true.
Hey Ichthus, I turned down 100k a year. Surely that makes me a philosopher.
Lemme guess. You didn’t want to spend your life seasick & freezing?
Wrong.
The job was my dream job in my dream location.
So what’s the story.
Oh, you know, things.
Made it up.
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I truly did not.
Did it for a girl that said she would have lunch with me some day. Even though I know she has a boyfriend.
My 10 years ago self would beat me with a bat, and I would have nothing to answer with.
But I can’t contemplate it. Going there and never seeing her again. I couldn’t do it.
aw
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bet you made that up tho
Haha, well, at least when you think I didn’t make it up the reaction is “aw.”
I have to get my act together, though. When one has no choice, one might as well commit.
…when does one ever have no choice? 
Sometimes.
ok weirdo. say weird shit.
What’s weird about it?