Well, at least now I kmow, I guess.
Holy shit.
I’m a little feral too, I spent so much time outside of normalcy. So much time relating to women fucked upedly.
Man. Can I say sholy shit again.
Haha “maybe she has to fart or take a shit.” It was so true.
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Well, at least I didn’t go on the angsty destruction rampage this time. Worse I did was alienate a pretty girl I could have pursued.
@Ichthus77 was, of course, perfectly correct in every way all along.
I wonder if I can intercept that email.
I’m not sure what to do now, but at least I know what kind of feelings not to trust.
I think honor dictates that I follow through and leave. If anybody detects dettatchment from reality in this, please point it out. I have at least learned the lesson of learning to listen.
Are there other places you can try?
Sure, there are jobs. I kinda dig this army idea more and more the more I think about it.
But let’s pretend yes.
I mean, if that’s what you’re asking, I wouldn’t just leave. I would look for something, give two weeks notice, etc.
I haven’t burned any bridges. I was just maybe a bit overly dramatic in avoiding Paulita, and that email which is even then not a burnt bridge, but approaches it.
I was thinking maybe this morning I try to grab her and say “hey Paulita I sent this email, you can read it if you want, but yadda yadda.”
Not sure what to do.
Even Ophelia is not wrong about most of the things she said.
Well, whatever the day holds, one day at a time, not much I can do beside play it by ear.
This is probably true. But I won’t believe myself too much about much just yet.
Yeah, no, what I have to do is extract myself from the emotional haze I am jumping right back into.
To the people who have been trying throughout the months, the correct diagnosis is: narcissist. Outwardly very charming and good looking, inwardly exceedingly insecure and possessive.
The narcissist creates a fantasy, an image, and whatever deviates from it is evil, has to be demeaned and denigrated into place. To the narcissist, this deviation is felt as catastrophic, the image was his everything. It is all a thin emotional facade, though he himself cannot see it.
It is a little like Umbrella corp in the early Jokovich movies. The narcissist is both the evil front and the little girl trying to save those who fall into the maze.
I am not evil. But nobody is evil. Dear people, please disabuse yourselves of this notion
You selectively ignored where I said don’t ask her again until your new job is set and after your two weeks’ notice is up.
I didn’t. I just lost emotional control.